He Cheated Part Two

Please Stop

        I wanted so much for him to stop and be the Silas that I knew. I feel like I have no energy at this point no energy to fight back. Nothing. I start to become numb. He once again gets my pants off and we are having sex. In the middle of it he said " This is how it should be baby. I love having rough sex." This is new to me he is never like this. Does this mean all the times we had sex he wasn't enjoying it? Then he said " Oh Lisa turn over I want more and more rough. I want this to last all night." I don't I want to leave. Sex lasted for an hour and half. I didn't even feel like myself I feel weird. I don't like it, I have no expressions, no emotions, nothing. I walk down stairs start to smoke and while I was smoking Silas takes it, he takes a few hits and puts it out. He grabbed me by both arms and threw me on the table. I can't I can't I can't not again. I keep telling myself. I go to back up again and he pulls my legs to the edge of the table. " Oh yeah Lisa I love having sex like this the aggression, the fear the anger. It makes it so much better." I take a vase and threw it he looked over at it, it hit the cabinet. I jump off the table and go for the den. There is two doors. One in the kitchen and I go through the other one that leads to the living room, but Silas will know my plan so I wait a minute and go back in the kitchen. Silas is by the door in the living room. He starts throwing stuff at me left and right. I can't take this anymore. I am trying to get the back door open and as soon as I do Silas stopped me. He puts me back on the kitchen table and he is trying to have sex again. Cathy and Jane and James walks in. James, what is he doing here. Silas is still drinking while trying to have sex. Finally he stopped and I leave with them. We get to Cathy's house and her mom had breakfast made. It was already morning are you serious? I have to get some sleep, I play and talk to the kids for a minute they can see my face and bruises I tell him It happen in the car and I fell. They are still little enough to believe me. I get about 4 hours of sleep it's around 11am. I tell Cathy I really need to go home and get a few things. She said I can call James and ask him to go too. Not sure if that is a good idea. Protection yes, but jealousy no. James took us, him and Cathy became very close the past day. I didn't even ask how and didn't want to know.  I walk in Silas is passed out in the living room. I make my way up stairs it's a mess.  I get a few things and stuff for the kids I walk back down and I see a note on the coffee table. It said..........