He Cheated Part Two

Sadness

        What do I do now? I am just sitting there staring at the wall. Cathy said " Hey the hospital called they had to do a cause of death paper on Silas it should be ready tomorrow and you need to set up the funeral stuff Lisa. I am hear to help" I start crying over and over. This is all my fault, I keep thinking but then I start to think it's his. How could be do this. Even though him and I were fighting he still had two kids who loved him so much. Cathy stays with me again Jane makes us coffee and was taking spells where I would cry and then be fine. It was crazy. The next morning we make all the plans, Jane and cathy cleaned the house. Mine and Silas's family were all at my house. It still didn't seem real. The kids were asking what was wrong. Silas being gone was nothing new to them, they didn't know he has passed though. I didn't want noone here not even Cathy. I wanted to be alone with my kids. Everyone had food who came over. So many cards and flowers. The funeral was the next morning I didn't sleep, we go to the showing that morning, then the funeral was right after. When we get back home everyone comes back home I have so many flowers that we had to start putting them outside. I stand by the back thinking, I blocked everything else out all the talking, everything was looked out of the back door. Trying to Picture Silas and I growing old together.