"pain- i felt it when i met you for the first time,
but it was a good kind of pain,
accelerated thumping in my chest and a faint ache of yearning.
pain- i felt it when your lips touched mine for the first time,
but again, a good kind of pain,
unfamiliar clenching and ceased breathing.
pain- i felt it when you pushed me away for the first time,
but not the good kind I'd always felt,
racing mind and sweaty body, thoughts overdrive.
pain- i felt it when you gave me that look of pity before you turned and left my life.
but again, not the good kind,
vision filled with dots, body weak and limp,
but i also feel that familiar ache, yearning, always, only for you."
-k.v.
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