GOOD NIGHT
Sa pagmulat ng aking mata, isang ngiti ang sumilay sa aking mga labi. Finally, Im home. Dali dali akong umalis sa aking kinatatayuan at pumasok sa asul na tarangkahan sa kabilang bahagi ng tulay. Mas lumawak ang aking ngiti ng makita ang kakaibang kagandahan ng kalikasan sa aking panaginip.
Bata pa lamang ako ng mapunta ako sa mundong ito, mundo na kung saan lahat ng nanaisin mo ay makukuha mo. Mundo kung saan tanging mapupuntahan mo lamang kapag ikaw ay tulog.
Hindi ko mapigilang mapangiti habang naalala ko ang unang araw ko sa mundong ito.
*************FLASHBACK***********
"Ikaw! Ikaw Josh ang may kasalanan ng lahat! Ikaw ang sumira sa buhay natin! Ikaw!" Sigaw ni Mommy kay Daddy habang nasa sala sila. My mom is crying and i can't help but to cry also. Narinig nila ang aking iyak kaya naman napa baling sila sakin.
"Hey sweetie... its pass your bedtime na. Lets go." She said and bring me to my room. She smile at me before kissing my forehead and bid goodnight to me. I close my eyes and drifted into my dreams the moment my mom turn off the light.
"Hey... Nat... wake up..." someone called me the reason why i opened my eyes. I was welcome by a smiling girl, she's so pretty. "Who are you?" Tanong ko ngunit ngumiti lang siya sakin at niyaya akong maglakad. kahit ayaw ng aking isipan ay para may sariling isip ang mga paa at humakbang ito ng magisa.
Pumasok kami sa isanv asul na tarangkahan, nanlaki ang aking mata sa aking nasaksihan. Kay gandang lugar. The beauty of this place is so... wow.
"Welcome, to Dreamtopia."
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Gabi gabi kapag natutulog ako ay dito ako laging napupunta. Sometimes i secretly wish not to wake up and stay in this world forever. But i cant.
I was crying in front of the garden, my mom and dad is fighting again. Gabi gabi na lang silang nagsisigawan. At nasasaktan ako.
"Your crying again." Someone said from behind the reason for me to
B
e surprise. Kumunot ang aking noo ng may isang hindi kilalang nilalang ang unti unting lumapit sakin.
His wearing a faded jeans, white t-shirt na naka tuck in, at jacket. His wearing a mask also, dahilan para mata niya lamang ang aking makikita. His brown eyes.
"Who... are you?" I ask. He say beside me and hand me a handkerchief. "Im Gino, Im your dream bestfriend."
******************PRESENT***************
"GINO??!!" sigaw ko, halos nalibot ko na ang buong lugar ngunit hindi ko pa din siya nakikita. Yes, nanatili siya sa tabi ko kahit 17 na ako. According to him, mawawala lang siya kapag panahon na at kapag hiniling ko.
And its impossible for me to wish for him to disappear. His not only my bestfriend. Yes, i love him. I feel inlove with my dream bestfriend.
"Where are you?! Gino?!" Kinakabahang sabi ko. Nasaan na siya? Hindi kaya- Shit! No way! Hindi naman sana!
Pumunta ako sa may lawa at napahinga naman ako ng maluwag ng makita siya dong nakaupo. Shit! Kinabahan ako don ah!
"There you are. Akala ko kung nasan kana." I said and sit beside him. He look at me and smile. But i can see that his smile doesnt reach his eyes even though i cant see it because his wearing a mask.
His been on my side of 6 years, every night. Kaya naman kilalang kilala ko na siya at ganun din siya sakin. I never tried to take his mask off. I dont want to take a risk. Baka... mawala siya kapag nagpadala ako sa curiosity ko.
"Your gonna turn 18 tomorrow." Dahil sa sinabi niya ay naalala ko na kaarawan ko na pala bukas. I was about to smile when i remember the girl told me about Dreamtopia.
"Everything will end when you turn at age of 18. You wont forget what happened but you will stop coming in this dream. Because Dreamtopia is made for minors only. the moment you turned 18, everything will fade away." She said and smiled at me. I look at her and then to Gino who's just a meter away from us.
"Even him?" I point Gino. She smiled slightly at me and nod.
"Today... is the last night Nat." He whisper. I shake my head. No.. no way. I-i cant. No! No.
I look at him. His crying already, he hug me so tight and tried to comfort me but i cant. I cant stop crying. It hurts. It fucking hurts.
"W-why..." I whisper but he just hug me tighter. Hindi. Hindi ko kaya mawala siya.
"Wala na ba tayong magagawa? Or pwedeng makiusap na dito nalang-" hindi ko natapos ang sasabihin ko ng bigla niya akong tinignan ng masama.
"You don't belong here Nat, you are real while me? Im... im just nothing." He said. Paulit ulit akong umiling pero nginitian niya lang ako.
May kinuha siya sakaniyang bulsa at nagulat ako ng makita isa itong kwentas na Buwan and Pendant. Sa likod nito ay naka guhit ang dalawang letra 'N♡G'.
I look at him. "I love you."He whisper the reason why my tears flow again. "I love you."
We spent our time holding each other hand. It was fun, but everything has an ending. Everything has a deadline. Everything will stop. Everything has an end.
I cant help but to wish na sana, sana totoo nalang siya. Yes,my reality sucks, But its true. Fantasy maybe my happiest place but its fake. Its fictional. Its just a dream.
As the clock strikes 11. I can feel that his already fading. I want to hold him but i cant feel his hand already. He look at me and smiled. Assuring me and trying to comfort me that everything will be already. But no, it will never be alright.
30 minutes left. I hug him. So tight. I keep on crying. Begging him not to leave me but his already crying.
"Among all of the children i met, you are the bravest Natasha. Go. Go back to your reality. Someone out there will love you the way i do. I know he will take care of you more than i do." He whisper.
I can feel his body fading. Tanging mukha niya na lamang ang aking nakikita.
11:55
"Take care always. Please." He said and smile at me. His neck is already fading.
11:56
"I will miss you for sure. Natasha. My one and only love." I cant answer him because tears are still flowing.
11:57
"Hey shhhh. Stop crying. I cant wipe your tears anymore. Im sorry Natasha. Can you do me a favor?" He ask. I nod. Ang sakit ng lalamunan ko. I just want it to end but i dont wanna lose him.
11:58
"I want you to smile. I want to see your smiling face before i go. Please Natasha?" Kahit masakit ay ginawa ko ang sinabi niya. I wipe my tears and tried to smile. He smile also. Tanging ilong niya nalang ang nakikita ko.
11:59
"Thats my girl. Now... i want you to turn around. Please? Turn around. For me?" Kahit gusto ko siyang makita kahit sa huli ay sinunod ko pa din ang gusto niya. Nagulat nalamang ako ng makita ko na nakasuot na sa aking ang kwentas na binigay niya.
12:00
"Happy 18th birthday Natasha, i love you. Goodnight." And he was gone.
