The Assignment (Kylo Ren X Reader)

Chapter 14

-KYLO POV-
He looks over and sees you. Rey had stabbed you with her lightsaber and he couldn't protect you. By the time he had looked back over at Rey and Finn, they had gone. They cleared their way into a ship that was piloted by Poe.

He turns to face you and you are kneeling on the sand. Tears filling your eyes and a hand over your fresh wound. Kylo almost broke down at the sight of you. He rushed over and put a hand on your shoulder. He screamed your name to try and get your attention but he realized you would soon fall unconscious.

He picked up your wounded body and carried you onto the ship. Screaming for the ship to take off. In that moment he finally knew what you truly meant to him. All it took was seeing your mostly dead body to realize it. He loved you. Kylo Ren loved you. He wanted to take care of you. He wanted to grow old with you. And he wanted for you to be his and for him to be yours. He needed you. And he couldn't lose you.

When the ship finally landed he ran as fast as he could to the medbay. The doctors and nurses rushed to your aid to stop the bleeding. After about two hours they had successfully stopped the bleeding and bandaged you up. Kylo has stayed the entire time to make sure you were okay.

The doctors finally gave him an all clear to see you. He was hunched in a chair in the waiting room and he held his mask in his hands. He rubbed his eyes and stood up, following the doctor to your room. When he stepped in he had to stop himself from crying again. He didn't want to cry in the med bay especially when he doesn't have his mask on.

He sat with you the entire night but had to leave when he was called into a meeting with General Hux.

He leaned down  and whispered in your ear "I'll be back, I love you" with that he turned and left your hospital room.

-Y/N POV-
You wake up in a white room. You slowly squint, then flutter your eyes open. It's bright. Too bright. The light is almost blinding. You search around at your surroundings. The sound of a beeping, coming from a machine. You glance around your body, you are in a hospital bed. A white bandage is across your lower stomach and there are tubes everywhere.

Around the room there are two other people. Both wearing white uniforms. You try and take a peak at their names but you can't get a clear view. One of the people look over at you as they fix your bandage.

"You're awake!" They observe. Your head pounds with the sound of their loud voice.

"Obviously" You want to say but you don't have the energy to speak. You feel absolutely drained.

All you want to do is go back to sleep but you can't. The feeling of hatred is clouding your mind from shutting up. You need to kill the girl that did this to you. She deserves to pay for what she did. Your vision turns red and your clench your fists together at the thought of her.

The sound of footsteps stops your thoughts. The footsteps get closer and soon another person walks in. He has a stethoscope around his neck and a clip board in his hands.

"Commander, I see you've woken up" you nod in response because it's all you have energy for.

"Do you know where you are?" The man asks again. This time you shake your head "no"

"You are in the medbay, you were badly injured on Jakku. You have a lightsaber wound in your lower abdomen. It's not too bad and should heal rather quickly with our modern technology but you will be restricted." You couldn't exactly comprehend what he was saying, the only clear part was 'medbay' and 'Jakku' but you could fill in the rest.

"I want to go back to my quarters" you finally built up the energy to say.

"You will be able to do that in a couple days, but until then we want to keep you here." The doctor tries to explain to you.

"No! I need to go back now!" You shout. You were desperate to find the girl and kill her. Revenge is what you needed.

You remember at one of your first trainings with the Emperor that he taught you the importance of using your anger to fuel your power.

"Revenge is your best tool. The anger fuels your power and makes you better" you can still hear his raspy voice echoing in your head. His lessons are a constant reminder of why your here.

You needed to get your revenge. Even the thought of her face sends you into over drive. As you think about her you unknowingly were clutching your fists, you were tightening your grip like a pulse. This doctor was keeping you from your revenge and it made your vision go red, the anger was taking over and you were struggling to fight the urge to make him fly across the room out of pure aggression, but you didn't know if you had enough energy to use the force.

"Commander, please just stay one night then you can go back to your room." You thought about it and out of pure exhaustion agreed to stay one night.

"Fine. One night. That's it." You agreed and he sighed of relief.

When he and the other person left you quickly found yourself drifting off to sleep.

"She's fine. Can we go now?" You heard Hux's voice say. What is he doing here?!

"No. We need to make sure she's okay. She's one of us now." You heard Kylo reply back.

Reluctantly you fluttered your eyes open and looked up at them. Hux's eyes looked over your body in disgust and Kylo had his helmet on so you couldn't tell what he was thinking or feeling.

"What do you need?" Your voice rasped.

"Ren insisted we come by and check on your well being." Hux explained harshly. What a dick. You're the one hurt and he acts like it's an inconvenience for him.

"Oh." Was all you had the energy to say at this point.

Kylo scoffed at Hux "just leave Hux, go make yourself useful" he said annoyed.

Now it was just you and Kylo and you didn't have enough strength to say anything, so you just laid down in the med bay bed staring up at him. Both of you content on the comfortable silence.

Kylo sat down in a chair that was placed next to your medbay bed and ripped off his helmet, carelessly discarding it on the floor.

You both sat in a comfortable silence and finally, he put in hand in yours. Squeezing it, holding it as if you were going to fade away in front of him.

"I'm sorry." He said tears filling his eyes.

"Why?" You asked him confused.

"It's my fault. It's all my fault." A single tear left his eye and you couldn't stop the waterfall of emotions that flooded you.

"Don't say that Kylo." You wanted to tell him that it's not his fault and that you know it wasn't because it was her fault not his. But you didn't have the energy.

"You almost died because of me. I almost lost you." He laid his head down on the crook of your neck. You reached a hand up and started stroking his soft wavy hair.

You both sat like that for about an hour until he finally got up and left, leaving you with your thoughts and your overwhelming exhaustion. You soon drifted off into peaceful sleep.