Imperfect

16

Its 10 pm in the wrist watch and Alec isn't back yet. With every blink, I can feel the swelling in my eyes. I'm just sitting and staring at the exit. Waiting for him.

I had a lot of fearful thoughts inside me right now. What if he never returns? What is he asks me to leave? What if he and the other two are coming to kill me?
It's all my fault.
How will I make him trust me the way he did before? One thing was guaranteed, that if Alec changes, my life wouldn't be the same either. Everything in my life right now is just so connected to him .

Suddenly I saw Alec. He stopped at the exit. He was alone. But something was wrong with him. He was drunk. His bloodshot eyes were watching my shocked face. His hairs were literally messed up.

"Hey Harmony!" He said as he struggled to stand straight.

"Are you okay Alec?" I was too worried. I noticed Carter's knife in his side pocket.

"Calm down Harm, I'm not that drunk" he lied and had a small laugh about it. He took a step towards me as I took a step back. He noticed my eyes which were on the knife that he had and said "No, fuck, don't be scared, I will never hurt you. I can't even imagine hurting you. You know I fucking like you.."
No, he didn't just said that he likes me. I was stunned. He must be leing or most probably the liquor is forcing these word out of him. He will forget everything tomorrow.
"Alec stop" I whispered.
He stopped. I could see the anger filling inside him.

"You are so scared of death huh? I totally get it. You have a perfect life and you have never seen such situations. But we......we fight with death every single day...... People like you having perfect life will never understand this......So fucking scared of death" he said with his finger forming commas in the air.

"I'm not scared of death! I'm scared of time!" I screamed with tears filling my eyes. "I'm having cancer!"

I covered my face with my palms. I don't want him to see my weak side. I don't want him to watch me crying. I don't want him for anything!
Alec walked towards me and wrapped his arms around me.

He cupped my cheeks and pressed his lips against mine. I could taste the liquor on his tongue. His hands grabby my waist and pushed me even more closer to him. Every part of me wanted to kiss him back.
"I'm so sorry" he whispered in my mouth. My pulse speeded up. There were goosebumps all over my body. I knew both of us wanted this.
Not knowing what to do with my hands, I just clutched his t-shirt with my fingers.
One of his hands travelled to my back as he brushed my bittom lip with his. All of my doubts, worries and pain suddenly went away.
I was totally lost into this devine moment.

Suddenly he broke off our kiss and said "Come with me".

He took me to the river. The river which I always wanted to see. I have seen it before, but I can't remember it. The last time I was here, was a terrible disaster. I was a crazy ass, running blindly without knowing anything.
But today, something feels special. I can't still believe that I kissed him.
The river is making everything a lot more beautiful. I can hear the flow of water with the touch of smooth wind. The silver moon light was all over us. It's shine on the water was blissful. God! it's heavenly. I felt so purified.

"I knew this place would make you feel better" he does read my mind, doesn't he? He stepped a little closer to me as both of us looked at stars.

"Harm, you are the reason, you are the one I'm born for. You are my answers to that question" he kept his arm on my shoulders and pulled me closer to him.