My Carnation - Dr.Stone FanFiction - 1215

r e d c o l u m b i n e

𝓉𝓇𝑒𝓂𝒷𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔

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After walking and hardly eating to save my food.
After laughing at my own jokes and using the knowledge given to me to pick berries and mushrooms to eat.
After I started to turn back to my maladaptive day dreaming ways and talking as if I was having a conversation with someone who was there but really wasn't.
After I had come to terms, sort of, with dying alone out here one day, maybe the way I was supposed to be, all alone.
After begging god some more.
After finding nothing and screaming and slashing with my knife at the wind.
After giving up.

"What is your name, miss?"
Not just two people, but an entire village. An entire village of people and houses and boats and spears and... and people who weren't on any side of this stupid 'war' Tsukasa talked about. They looked at me differently, like I was the enemy.
I asked for peace. I asked for someone to finally see me, to finally care about me the way I was. Not this.
I looked at the tip of the spear pointed at me, and clenched my teeth. Why was I even asking? Who was I even asking? Clearly, no one was listening.
"Are you from Tsukasa's empire?"
"No."
"Don't lie! There's no where else you could have came from!"
"Fine, I came from his empire. But I'm not apart of it. I'm not his ally, I'm not his anything."
"What do you mean? Didn't that sorcerer say he'd only revive people who were strong?"
Sorcerer? Jeez.
"He revived me by mistake." I told them, but they didn't seem to believe me, "He was misinformed about who I was. I was a mistake, and I was useless. So I left."
"You left? But why come here?"
"I didn't mean to. I just ended up finding you, that's all. I didn't even know you existed."
"Liar!"
"I'm not lying!" I screamed, but my anger just forced tears, "I'm not lying, because I left that stupid empire and wandered all this time thinking I would die! I never wanted to come here, just so you could point your spears at me- and look at me like I was some kind of devil!" I sobbed, keeling over as I covered my face, "I hate Tsukasa! And I hate you! I hate all of you!"
"What's going on over here?" It was a woman's voice this time, and I heard her presence beside me, "What are you doing, making girls cry, Kinro!"
"She's from Tsukasa's empire!"
"Well, actually, she said she left the empire. She didn't know she'd find us here!" The other said.
"Is that true?" Her voice was closer this time, and I hesitantly moved my hands away to look at her. I blinked, ah, she had nice eyes.
"It's true. I didn't think I'd really survive." I admitted, "I was revived by mistake."
She blinked, "How's that even possible? Gen said that-"
"He was misinformed." I sighed, sniffling, "He was misinformed... I had no place there. I probably won't be any use to you either. I don't belong in this world. I... I can't do anything important."
My hands were shaking, and she seemed to take notice. She seemed to see my pain, because she suddenly stood and reached out her hand to me.
"Come with me." She said, and my warm, wet face, looked up to her like she was the sun, "I'm going to take you to a place, where everyone has a purpose."
Impossible. I thought. That's impossible. One day you'll look at me just like they did and frown and shake your head and regret that you just said that. Don't lie to me. Don't give me hope.
"I promise."
Liar!
I reach out my hand anyways, desperate maybe. Even if one day she'd look at me just like everyone else again, I could take the time until then as my last moments. If her promise breaks, and the world turns against me for good... if the sun abandons me again, then I will die.
For now, I took her hand and she led me quietly to a promised land.
For now, I would live, in hopes of finding another reason. In hopes that one day, I won't have these thoughts anymore.