Amara's Pov
After the very long and tiring day of practicing, we finally were allowed to head back to the dorm, but unusually, I was exhausted mentally and physically. I had no energy to interact with anyone when I wanted to.
My muscles were crying out for some kind of release of the tension like a bath or maybe even just falling asleep. I was quiet the whole car ride almost falling asleep on the window, listening to all the loud chatter next to Yoongi who had no shame in snoring away with his head resting on my neck, his breathing was very light.
By the time we actually arrived inside the dorm, everyone was buzzing about dinner we had ordered well more or so Sejin ordered it on the way, and were getting ready for a movie night in the lounge. And I really wanted to spend time with everyone but I was just sleepy.
"Whoop let's do a scary movie." Jimin exclaimed tossing himself on the couch.
"I don't like scary movies. " Hoseok spoke up messing with his hair. I grabbed Seokjin gently tugging on the end of his sleeves of his hoodie which he carefully spun around to face me, looking at me with a smile.
"Yeah Amara?" He asked me sweetly, I nibbled at my lip before I spoke quietly.
"I'm not really feeling hungry Seokjin is it okay if I go lay down for a bit?" I asked him politely, he flashed me a very worried look and placed his slightly large hand on my temple scrunching his nose up in focus.
"Hm... I want you to go rest okay, I don't think being around a bunch of loud guys will make you feel better, I'll make you some soup later, go lay down sweetie." He wrapped me in a soft hug squeezing me, which I returned thankful.
"Thank you Seokjin." I muttered on his chest. I pulled back and slipped away, grabbing my practice bag entering the shared room, placing it down and shutting the door behind me, tossing my shoes away I heard the loud speaking.
"Where's Amara? Isn't she gonna eat?" I heard Yoongi question out, even if it was muffled a bit.
"She's not feeling good right now, so don't bug her at all, and I directing that towards you Taehyung and Jimin."
"What! I'm like the sweetest thing."
"Maybe she's on her lady thing."
"Jungkook!"
"What? It's better to assume that then something bad."
I chuckled quietly and ran my hands through my now growing hair. I carefully flopped down stomach first on my bed snuggling up into it.
Oh that felt nice I could fall asleep just like that. It felt almost an hour of me trying to fall asleep when the little creak of my door made me look up to see Hoseok poking his head in, carefully he slipped inside the room, shutting the door behind him carrying a bowl.
"Hey Amara." He whispered quietly flashing me a smile, I returned the smile, sitting up a bit.
"Hey Hopie." I whispered back, his bare feet hit the hardwood but he set the bowl down on the table top, "I brought you some soup. " He carefully sat on the bed next to me with a small grunt.
"Thank you." I told him softly and he moved closer to me and gently wrapped his arms around me breathing out a soft him rubbing his warm hands up and down my sides ."I also read about what we talked about today, you slipped a little didn't you? And you're having kinda a drop." He mumbled near my head.
I looked up at Hoseok a little startled "You read about that?" I asked him weakly. "Of course I said I was gonna learn about it, it's actually not as strange as people make it to be, a lot of people sexualize it, but yours just helps with stress correct." I was looking at Hoseok in awe and he chuckled at the faces I was making tucking away my hair behind my ears.
"I'm more smart then people think I am, so I wanna make an offer, you are very important to us Amara and honestly I'll do what ever I can do make sure you are comfortable being in a group with a bunch of guys and living with them, may I be your caregiver? Just for when you slightly slip." He let the offer out tilting his head at me gently.
I stared at him in a little shock, no one has really ever offered that. But I trust Hoseok. He was always taking care of every one and even when he wasn't okay he wasn't. I looked at him some more before resting my head on his chest and shook my head in a yes motion.
"I would really like that Hoseok thank you." I muttered hearing him breath out a happy chuckle he squeezed me tighter. "Oh Amara don't say thank you, I really wanted to do this you are so precious you are, I'm your hope now." He whispered rocking us both slowly.
I melted in his arms just relaxing hearing him telling me all these little things, even making the both is laugh at it. For the first time in a while I was relaxed and not freaking out about a small little part of me.
