petals on our lips |

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Now my heart was beating rapidly.

The silence was too loud between us.

I knew I shouldn't have kissed her,

But even so, I didn't regret it.

With her tear-stained eyes, she looked at me.

Not another second passed before her lips landed on mine.

I stared wide-eyed but let my lips melt in hers.

Our tears joined together at the closeness we had.

I held her head with my hands.

And with a soft sound, our lips separated and our foreheads touched.

I smiled with tears still falling down my face.

She grabbed my hands by my wrist and placed them down in front of her.

She looked at me with a soft smile.

My eyes stung as I held back my sobs.

She pulled me into a hug and that is where I finally let my cries out.

There was so much relief and desperation in my cries.

Relief that she loved me and desperation that i be cured.

She finally let me go of her embrace and she looked at me.

She spoke out the words she had told me once before as she wiped away my tears.

'I love you.'

My breath hitched but I let out a smile.

I looked at her and spoke sincerely,

'I love you too'

Hearing her words made me feel as if everything would finally be okay.

As if everything had finally passed.

But of course, it still had not,

I had hope that she finally loved me.

I had hope that I was cured.

But this of course could never be true.

Because her words weren't sincere.

And she would never,

truly, love me back.