change of heart - clustin

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"Clay do you...go to parties?" Jessica said coming to our table and trying to kiss Justin but he dodged it. "Well sorry for trying to show you love, asshole." she got up and walked away while we all stared at Justin. "He didnt even answer her question yet." Tony said laughing. "Babe, she was trying to ask you to come to her party." Ani told me making me look at her. "Oh, well I cant...I have to study with Bryce." I said holding my head down.

"Your actually going?" I looked up and saw Justin glaring at me. He looked...I dont know, angry, but filled with sadness. "No he's actually coming to my place." "Oh." Justin looked back down at his plate while Ani looked at him. "What about you Justin, are you going." "No actually im staying home." He looked at me and i rolled my eyes.

                          
                            Justin

I was sitting on my bed pretending to be on my while I glimpsed at Bryce and Clay. They were close but not to close so I turned back at my phone. Yes surely I know that im nosey but I really just wanna make sure Clay is safe even if I hate him. I looked up and saw that Clay and Bryce weren't in the room anymore.

I got up and walked downstairs towards the kitchen and saw Bryce and Clay sitting at the, Bryce had his hand on Clay's thigh and was slowly moving upward. "Okay um, Bryce you can leave now." I said opening the door for him. "Justin what the fuck." "Come back tomorrow to finish or maybe never, or in the principals office when there is someone to actually see you. Bryce rolled his eyes and walked out the door.

I closed the door and headed back upstairs while Clay followed. "What the hell is your problem Justin, I need that damn grade. Even if I have to get it with Bryce." Clay fumed making me get annoyed. "Oh my god Clay, did you not feel his fucking hand trailing up your fucking thigh or can you not feel anything anymore?" He looked at me like he had just seen a ghost. "I-I didn't feel it..." "Oh Clay I-..." I walked up to him and tried to touch his shoulder but he backed away. "Don't touch me right now, please."

"Yeah, okay sure." I say back down on my bed and watched as he went to his. "Hey Justin?" "Yeah?" "I'm sorry for hating you, sorry that I made you wanna hate me." I turned and looked at him. "I've never actually hated you, I care about you, a lot you're my brother Clay remember that." "Yea, your brother." He got out his bed and came and sat by me. "I'm glad you're here Justin." "Yeah Clay, me too." When Clay turned around I got up and grabbed my small bag before heading to the bathroom.

I got a tourniquet out of the bag and tightly wrapped it around arm. I whipped my arm before putting the needle in. I haven't done drugs in a while or needles or anything else. It's just today after seeing Bryce with Clay, I just had to. What would've happened if I decided to go to the party instead of staying with Clay? What would've happened if I didn't god downstairs and see Bryce? Does Clay like Bryce? No. He would never. Even I know Clay enough to know he would never, I think. Why do I care? Maybe because he's my brother. or maybe, maybe even I want him to be more than that. I sighed at my cousin started to get blurry and I stared into the distance.