change of heart - clustin

6:00 ␈

Justin rolled his eyes as he watched
Bryce walk up to him. " Y'know starbucks isn't to far from here, maybe you can still get 'the rapist' special." "Come on Foley, we're better than this." "No. Im better than you, there is no "WE", it's only me. It was always just me never "WE" so fuck off and go to starbucks."

He looked behind Bryce to see if Clay had made it, which he did, he was sitting at a table with Jess and Alex. It reminded him of Hannah. She always used to sit with Jess and Alex at that exact table before they all split apart.

"Fuck my life." He heard Clay say as Jessica stared at him blankly. "Aww you're like a male version of Hannah." Jess finally said breaking the silence between them. Justin walked away from Bryce and up to the trio.

"No. Clay. No. No being like Hannah." He spit out making Clay give him a confused look. "Yeah he's right, you're to much like her it's actually scary, oh my god are you going through something? we can get you help? did bryce touch you? are there razors in your bag?" Alex snatched Clay's bag away and begin searching it.

"We didn't save Hannah but we will save you." Jess added leaving nothing but a confused Clay. "Im not going through anyth-" "Pills? Why do you have pills?" Clay looked around the table just to see the three of them staring at him. He forgot to put the pills in his bathroom before coming here.

"You're always talking about me but are you trying to overdose or something?" Justin yelled out Clay, only loud enough for them to hear. "Oh fuck off Justin, im not like you. Nor am I like Hannah, I was given these from my doctor to help with my nightmares about her." He finally spoke leaving the table dumbfounded.

"Oh shit Clay, I wasn't thinking, i'm sorry." "Exactly Justin, you never listen that's your problem." The two boys stared at each other for what seemed like hours, before Jessica decided to break the tension. "Did I ever tell you guys how good Justin is in bed?"

"As your gay ex, I speak for myself at the moment but, I do not want to hear about it." Alex laughed before taking a sip of his drink. "As your bisexual friend, I also don't wanna hear about that." "Fine you didn't have to come out like that though." "Honestly Jess I would love to know how good I am in bed." Justin winked at Clay before turning back to Jess.

"You could show me?" "I would love to Jess but my shift just ended and Clay and I have to head home." Clay got up out his seat rushed pass Justin, out the door, and got inside the car. He was followed by Justin who was oblivious of the reason Clay was more angry than he was before.

"What did I do this time?" He said as he turned to face the angry boy. "I don't know Justin, what do you not do?" "Clay im trying, and im trying hard. I try to be the friend you need, I try to be the crush anybody would want, I even try to the be the brother you need but you won't let me." "You are not my friend, I do not like you, and you will never be my brother Justin."

"Okay." Was all Justin could reply before finally starting the car up and heading back to Clays house. As soon as they got out the car Justin went right upstairs and grabbed a dufflebag. He quickly put his bottle of pills in the bag before throwing clothes over them.

"Where are you going?" He turned to see Clay standing in the doorway glaring at him. "Im gonna stay in a hotel for some days, I figure you might need space so i'm gonna give it to you. You can have your room back and you won't have to worry about me i'll talk to your parents when i get back and see if I can make the basement into my room."

He headed towards the door but stopped when Clay blocked him. "You forgot the keys." "I won't need them." He walked pass Clay and made his way downstairs and out the door.

Justin looked around before finally bringing himself to knock on the door. He stood still as he waited for the door to swing open, when it did he forced himself to smile and pulled the woman into a hug. "Hi mom."