Save me Alpha

this isn't meant for me

I wonder what that was all about? Lizzy came back and sat down. I looked up but Seth wasn't back. Where did he go?

I looked back at Lizzy and she just shrugged her shoulders and looked away.

Class just wasn't the same. Seth was always talking making me feel less alone. Now there was too much silence.

I layed my head down against my desk. Did I do something to make him mad? Wait why does that even matter?

I have to get this guy out of my head. Classes seemed to drag on forever. Except gym wasn't too bad. I couldn't really do anything with my arm. I just sat against the wall in the corner.

By lunch I was starving but I didn't have the stomach to eat. I saw them all sitting together and laughing. I wanted something like that.

Lizzy waved her hand calling me over. "Alex! Over here." I can't do this. I turned away throwing my food in the trash. I left.

"Alex, wait" she kept calling after me. I walked faster.

I wondered around for a few minutes. I was bored. I Finally sat down on a bench under a tree. I pulled out a book and chuckled darkly.

"How Sad, a book is better than my own life." It Sounds stupid but books are my escape. A place where I can pretend I'm someone else, or that I'm OK.

I feel like my life will never be Okay.