| ALESSANDRO |

C H A P T E R T W E N T Y - FOUR

C H A P T E R  T W E N T Y -
F O U R

"I love you."

Fuck Yasmine. You really had to blow everything up. Fuck, fuck, fuck. This shouldn't end like with my last love. I'm not going to repeat the same mistakes.

Alessandro mustered my face, still without losing any words. Why wasn't he answering?

„Oh my god, Alessandro, I..I di-", my vision started blurring out and the only thing I could see was my own hands.  Confused I looked up at him. His eyes were focused on me, while still remaining silent. After what felt like a thousand years he took my face into both of his warm hands and made me look into his green orbs. The expression he wore wasn't what I had expected at all. He was smiling. His eyes held such a happy and loving expression, almost adoring. His infectious smile  made all my worries vanish within seconds

"Gattina. I can't", he pulled away making his back face me. He was blocking all the light the moon was eluding.

"W-wh. Why?"

My smile dropped. My anxiety immediately settled in. Why is it that everyone I love doesn't love me back? Water started forming in my eyes. My cheeks started burning from the saltiness of the liquid. I felt naked and saw that everything was becoming miserable again. I thought I was past this. My voice sounded painfully desperate.

"Alessandro. Why", I whispered.

He suddenly grabbed my wrist with one hand and my jaw with the other leaving me with no there choice than to let him see my tear-stained face.

"Yasmine. This simple word love doesn't even measure up to what I feel for you. It is so much, so much that sometimes.. I don't want to scare you away with what I feel for you. I knew you were mine all along, I just had to find you. Now that I have I'm afraid of you leaving me. If you would. I wouldn't know what to do. I love you so much, you are a part of me! If you were gone, the only plausible thing for me to do would be to kill myself. ", at this point, his eyebrows were raised and his eyes held such a painfully yearning smile.

Deep-down he was deeply hurt by something in his mysterious past. Something he couldn't tell me or at least couldn't not put in words. I wanted to help him so badly. Make his pain go away, be his pain-killer.

"Yasmine. Please don't ever leave me. I couldn't bear it.", he was begging so desperately making my heart tear apart, as he tightly held onto my hands. As if he were clinging for his life. Silence.

"I would never Alessandro. I couldn't", I pulled his head into my chest hugging him tightly and hiding my face into his now ruffled up hair.

"I could never leave you. Never..", I nuzzled all over again into his hair, repeating myself, and trying to make his pain go away. He finally grabbed my arm, gently winding himself out of my grip. I took his face into my hands and pressed my lips onto his.
Ending this starless night that stirred up so many emotions. I felt at ease knowing that this wonderful man loved me back.

xoxo author living in her post gossip-girl depression.