Parts of Me

hello world, this is me.

large brown eyes,
long dreadlocks,
tiny freckles on my face
and one dimple
on the left side of my cheek.
definitely not perfect
but
definitely drop dead gorgeous.

I am
a daughter
a little sister
an aunt
a best friend...
the list goes on.
I am a lot to many people.
And I have a lot to give.

And many stories to tell.

I have cried, I have laughed
I have smiled, I have frowned
All seventeen years of my life.

Sometimes I wonder about how long I will live
and if I will ever get the chance to stargaze,
have a rooftop party,
have an arcade date
or take a long road trip with all my friends.
I want to achieve a lot of things before I sleep forever.

I wonder why people are so scared of death.
What if all the souls go to space and float there?
What if there is absolutely nothing to do in the afterlife?
What if there is no gruesome hell and the aesthetically gorgeous heaven?
All I know is that I do not fear death.
Death can come knocking anytime at my door and I will gladly let it in.

But...
I still want to grow old and frail with someone.
I still want to feel the raindrops on my cheeks and see the rainbow afterwards.
I still want to watch the sunset.

I mean, I am still seventeen, right?
One would swear that I'm not.
It is in the way that I carry myself, the way that I think and speak that makes people think that I'm not seventeen.
I just might be an old soul in a young body.

My mind is a very complex place with different sceneries.
One place is bright and beautiful
And the other place
is really dark and indescribably eerie.
There's just a lot going on there.
It is a blessing and a curse.

There are many parts to me.
You have read some.
The stories, poetry... the book itself.
They all form a part of me.

Hello world, I am Realeboga Basetsana Melato and this is me.

Thank you all so much for reading Parts of Me.