13.
Moving to other town wasn't easy. No one understood me. Some people thought that I was arrogant. Maybe I was. I was full of rage and I wanted to get back to my old life. I couldn't accept the situation.
14.
I felt purposeless. I was bullied. Kept on hearing voices in my head telling me to "end everything." Discovering X's music helped...Save Me spoke more to me. Screaming out for help, but no one was there to listen. Always being called dramatic and selfish. Crying myself to sleep. Only my pillow knew the pain I felt.
Fell in "love" when I was 15. I probably thought I was in love because he was an escape from reality. I felt better. I thought I was better. I acted as if I knew what I was doing. Planning my future...making promises. Rushing into things not knowing that I was digging a grave for myself. Super naïve. I had future plans already.
16.
Fell out of love. Or was it love? Realising a lot about myself. Finding the perfect way to escape reality. Through writing.
I'm no saint. I believe that I have hurt plenty of people this year, more than the previous years.
Why? I learnt to be selfish. I built walls around my heart. I stopped making people walk all over me as if I was a carpet.
I had to sit down with myself.
I got rid of the toxicity. Well, I thought I did.
I walked away from many people. Broke many promises. I had to get out of the emotional prison that I was in.
I thought I was on a road to recovery.
I felt overwhelmed one night. Drank as many pills as I could. It seemed as if they were not enough, until...
Darkness fell. All I heard was my parents praying for me. My mom crying and trying to wake me up.
I heard the car starting.
The rest was a blur.
When I finally woke up, my parents were happy. My mom smiled and my dad had a sigh of relief.
"Whenever you feel like you can't handle anything, we're here."
That's when I felt warm and loved.
I went back to school. People were wondering why I missed a week of school. I smiled and said that "I nearly died."
17.
I hope you have nothing but happiness in store for me.
YOU ARE READING
Parts of Me
SaggisticaThese are all the short pieces I've written. They all form a part of me. I put my heart into this and I hope that will you love it as much as I do.
