marrying mr arrogant // choi hyunsuk

5- hello

"hello, there's no need for words
whether you're a bad girl, good girl, it doesn't matter." 

-hello

- a weeks later-

i woke up. my head hurt badly. everything around me was spinning white. i saw byounggon sleeping at the side of the bed and i just pat his head.

his eyes immediately opened, "you're awake."

"yea, how long has it been."

"a week? i missed you sister," he said as he gave me a hug.

"where's jihoon?"

"you remembered?"

"only the time when i saw mom and dad dying..."

"that's all?"

"am i supposed to remember anything else?"

"huh no, jihoon left this for you," he then passed me a baby blue envelope, i opened it and it revealed a pastel pink letter:

-

hey minha,

i guess i have been right, i shouldn't have been selfish.

if i was fire, you would be water. the one that i should stay away from. we live in completely different worlds.

i have always thought of myself as a strong-willed person. i never imagined that i would choose to hurt someone else in exchange for my own blessings, but in moments of life or death, you enter a state of fight mode. instincts take over. your mind reacts in ways you never thought possible.

however, i know i am still as selfish as ever. my thoughts won't change. i still like you since then, even after everything has happened. please, forgive me. i know what i have done was stupid, you don't have to forget that traumatic scene. surely, it has been etched at the back of my mind for these 16 years. and i didn't expect you to remember. i missed you.

can you give me another chance? even if it is just to be a friend?

jihoon

-

i can't hate him though. why does he keep blaming himself. i was childish back then, it was clearly my mom's choice to save him, he didn't kill them. 

heck and i liked him this whole time, not knowing he actually knew me as well. 

"byounggon, where did he go?"

he just shrugged his shoulders, "he felt that you would be upset if you woke up seeing his face."

the door then opened, "you know you have a fiance instead of jihoon right."

byounggon got up and said, "i'll leave the both of you alone."

-

"why are you even here."

"do you think I want to be here"

i just gave him a blank face.

"my parents forced me."

"oh"

an awkward silence formed between us. the letter was still in my hands. I continued to look at it and thought,  "why didn't he tell me this earlier."