Unapologetic For My Flaws and All 2nd edition

CHAPTER 1: UNAPOLOGETIC FOR MY FLAWS AND ALL 2nd EDITION

THE ALARM GOES OFF AND I DON'T WANT TO MOVE.

I keep my eyes closed, thinking about my confusing life as I reach over and hit the button. I feel like every day, I am on a roller coaster going up, down, in a circle, upside down, and sometimes I am going backwards without a break. It's never-ending. There are times when I am ready to get off the ride, but if I do, I know my life will change tremendously. Maybe, change will not be a bad thing.

People say that I am the "most popular" girl in school. I do not know how I became most popular. The best person I can be is myself. My friends, classmates, some of my teachers, and people who know me, act like my shit don't stink. I am human and I try my best to stay humble. I guess I am the most popular person in school because I am not afraid to be myself.

It has never been my mission to keep up with the latest style. I do not have a preferred style; however, I love to dress neatly. Most importantly, I love to dress comfortably, according to my mood. Goodwill is my favorite store. Nothing is ever the same, there is always something new or gently used. It is not like a typical store that will have the "norm" that you expect. It has some of everything, and sometimes things that you least expect–I might add, for a reasonable price.

Honestly, I love the Goodwill store! Every time I walk in, I know that I am going to have a field day! It's a one-stop-shop convenience store. I buy all my books from Goodwill. I literally live in the book section. I bought a white desk there that was in great condition, and it had a matching chair. It fits perfectly in my room. Their clothes are used, but the ones I pick are quality and gently used. At times, I find 'affirmation' decorations to hang on my wall. I make sure I have time on my hands when I am shopping at Goodwill because I never know what I might find.

I always love to get my hair, toes, and nails done. They're always on point. However, my friends and other people fail to realize that most of the time, I do my own hair, nails, and toes. YouTube is my best friend! People are always coming up to me asking where I get my hair done, or what color I'm wearing on my toes and nails. They even ask me what kind of toothpaste I use to brush my teeth because my teeth are always white. I tell them, I floss and brush my teeth with regular toothpaste like everyone else.

For some people, it must be stressful being someone that you're not. However, I do not know about that, because I am unapologetic for my flaws and all. I love me for me. There's no reason for me to change to fit in. I am perfectly fine fitting into my own world. I love the woman who I am becoming. I wish other females would jump on board and know they are beautiful just the way they are.

It is strange how people follow me on social media and pay close attention to who I follow. Before I follow other people, I make sure I read their profile. If I do not know them—I do not follow them at all. I tend to follow meditation, affirmation, and earth picture bloggers. I am not a goody-two-shoes, but I am cautious because the world is crazy. Well, technically the world isn't crazy; it's the people that are in it.

The other day, my best friend asked me why do I follow this person or that person. I told her because I want too. She really gave me a speech on why I shouldn't follow certain people. She thinks most of the people I follow are "lame." I couldn't entertain her because that is the problem with so many people; they care too much about what other people think.

She really told me I cannot follow everyone who follows me on social media. That is forbidden if I want to keep my A-1 status. She went on to say, it is a must that I have more followers than my "so- called friends" (who copy my every move). Honestly, I totally ignored her.

Ugh. It is annoying seeing people who break their necks trying to keep up with me. Sometimes I cannot keep up with myself because there is so much going on. Everyone tells me about their problems, and they really wait for me to give them advice. I tell them to take a number because I cannot help everybody at the same time. Shoot, half the time, I cannot help myself, let alone everyone else.