CHAPTER EIGHT 8
I WAS GOING TO CHEERLEADING PRACTICE TODAY, but I saw Brian and Angel outside on the steps, kissing. It was so disgusting—it was one of those nasty kisses, at that. I felt confused because I never understood how someone could move on so fast without healing or giving a care in the world. I shouldn't care but in reality, I do. I invested so much time and energy into that boy. I can't believe it's been a little over a month and things are still intense. Everyone is talking about the fight. As I walk into the debate club, I hear people whispering as they look at me. I don't know what they are saying; it shouldn't matter, but it does.
I can't stop thinking about them outside. I have to be honest, it hurts. My wounds are still open but they will heal in time. As I continue to think about them out there slobbering each other down—I remember, just a week or two ago, he asked me for a ride.
I looked at everyone in the debate club and walked out. I am not going to sit there while I am the topic for today. I decided to pass on cheerleading practice too.
My heart is broken into many pieces. I got in my car and cried and cried until I felt like I didn't have any fluid left. I looked over and read an affirmation that I'd placed on my dashboard months ago. It says, "Tears cleanse the soul. Cry if you want too. Scream if you have too. Afterwards, everything will be A.O.K!" When I thought I was done—I cried over and over again. When a girl's heart is broken sometimes there isn't any coming back from that. Sometimes we lose hope because dudes ain't shit. They are so selfish in so many ways.
As I was driving home, I pulled up at my favorite nearby park and sat there in silence for a couple of hours. I cut my phone off and just begin to think about life. I said to myself,
Love is so hard.
Love is so complicated.
Love hurts.
I feel like love doesn't give a fuck about anybody.
Love is so selfish and steals your joy. Love is cut-throat.
Love isn't fair, because the person who needs you, you don't want them; you
want someone else. Most of the time, the person you want is taken or doesn't want
you in return.
Love sucks.
Love doesn't give you who you want, more so, it sends you who you need.
Then...
That one person who needs you doesn't give up... but you pull away. As you
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