antics | b.e

chapter 18- promise

BILLIE

driving up the steep hill, she could see the grove, the wind blowing around the leaves. daddy issues played through the speaker, juniper jamming out to it with her eyes closed. she ran her hands over her body, tilting her neck back. it aroused her and released unbelievable amounts of serotonin seeing the girl of her dreams living her best life.

running away with a singer, what a rockstar life.

it was a run down road leading up to the canopy, encasing a flat rock in the middle. billie liked to believe that whatever gods were in the sky created it and rested at that point from time to time. the silver moonlight casted the perfect lighting through the canopy.

"what's this? it's nice and all..", juniper gave a puzzled face as they slowed down near a break in the trees and vines.

"it's where i go when i feel like i need to escape from everything.. and everyone. i would come home from tour exhausted and feel like my body is dying, but it's worth it. so this is where i come when i just need to relax, a break from it all. when i leave it's like i'm almost good as new for the rest of the day.", billie saw her smiling at her face as they walked closer to the overgrowth, looking at every aspect of her face.

"nobody, or as far as i know, nobody knows about this. i haven't seen anybody here. the only person that knows i come here is finneas.", they sat down, everything was laid out already since billie would get herself comfortable.

"so why did you show me?", juniper grabbed her hand and fiddled with her fingers.

"i don't know. i just felt like i had to be real with you..", billie took in a deep breath, ready to explain everything to her, how she felt.

"you weren't being very real, when there was a thong in your glove compartment. don't say they're yours, your ass doesn't fit them.", she squeezed the fingers in her hand harshly, making her pull them back like she was scorched.

"you weren't being very real, when i saw those fresh hickeys on your neck, they aren't noticeable unless you're looking for something.", juniper sat up on her knees and grasped billie's propped up leg, shuddering under touch.

"you weren't being very real, when you lied at the restaurant, poor girl just wanted to have your dick inside of her again for the second time today. she wasn't from a while ago, i'm starting to think the homeschooled brain is getting to you:", she pouted mockingly, grazing her hand over the crotch of her pants, billie's hips jolting up.

"you weren't being very real, when there was a bright red, long lasting, mac ruby woo lipstick in your cup holder. now try and lie to my face saying that you wear that.", juniper towered over billie as she moved in front of her, she blocked the moon and shrouded the both in darkness.

"you weren't being very real, when the bra in your backseat just happened to be there. unless your boobs shrunk down to a c cup, don't try and say you wear them.", she spread open billie's knees' giving a predatory stare with feline eyes, a seducing and dangerous look swirled in her irises. her anger barely contained, spilling over the brim.

"you weren't being very real, when i saw all the text messages on your phone from a party you went to. all the girls you fucked and how they sucked your dick. how are those girls anyway? probably caught your stds.", she crawled between billie's legs, making her scoot back slowly.

"you said you were always being real to me, wanting a second chance to prove yourself. when all you're proving is how stupid i was for thinking you'd be different.", she wrapped a hand around billie's throat, putting her finger on a red spot and applying pressure.

"have fun catching herpes. i thought i could eventually love somebody like you. i thought wrong.", with that, juniper raised a hand and laid a sharp slap to the left side of billie's face.

she stood up with tears in her eyes, a few running down her face. she walked away, leaving billie to clutch her face painfully. she still needed to explain herself, she couldn't let juniper leave.

"june. fuck, you slap hard. june!", she got up, rubbing a hand to her cheek.

"stay the fuck away from me! you've done enough, stop trying to explain yourself.", she threw up a middle finger, her voice cracking towards the end of her sentence. billie scrambled and slipped on the poorly laid out gravel.

"please, hear me out. after that you can lose my number, block me, expose me on every social media platform. i don't care! just let me explain to you why i've been like this for as long as i remember..", she grabbed onto juniper's hands, begging her with her eyes.

"don't embarrass yourself.. you're already humiliating me by thinking you even have a chance for a third try at me. i'm like your favorite chew toy and you're a fucking dog!", juniper shoved her back, far enough so she could keep walking.

"i'll get on my knees just to have you listen to what i have to say.", she stared at billie, a blank stare on her face. she leaned forward with a scowl.

"then get on your knees.. and beg, bitch.", she spat onto the ground beneath them.

doing just what she said, she grasped onto juniper's hands desperately. she was getting ready to speak when a harsh hand was laid across her face again.

"at least you're as low as you put yourself. lose my number, eilish. you're not worth wasting my time with your useless bitching.", she walked away, a car pulling up, headlights shining directly on billie's crouched figure.

she squinted and put a hand over her eyes, seeing familiar raging eyes behind the wheel. alejandro made his hand into a gun and popped it at her, honking loudly, sending her back a few steps.

"don't fuck with my sister, you fucking whore!", tires squealed against the broken down road, the car pulling away. her eyes caught juniper's pained ones, she clenched her hand into a fist. she missed what she never had, juniper felt like a breath of fresh air.

it made her want to leave everything behind a little less. mindless fucks and high sex to make the nights go by faster so she can stay around longer.

so shark won't wonder why she isn't waking up from the bathroom floor.

her depression never went away, she got better at hiding it. she didn't want her fans, her babies to worry about her and her mental health. they didn't need to be worried that she could just take her life at any moment if she wanted to. her shows and her friends were the only thing that kept her going.

she popped prozac like they were m&ms, she rarely drank alcohol, she wouldn't do that to herself. finding juniper with her atrocious brother was the light of her life, aside from her fans

soon everything hit her, how she took advantage of juniper's forgiving personality, she took it like she could make mistakes over and over again.

"juniper. oh god i fucked this all up. i fucked it up.", her vision blurred, she wasn't exactly sure why she was so affected by one girl. no one made her feel this way since a few years ago. the moment juniper entered her life, it flipped upside down. every time she fucked somebody she thought of the lively girl with sparkling brown eyes.

when she smoked scenarios of living life together, on the road for tours formed in her head like some far away fantasy.

turns out, it was far away, because billie eilish can't keep a promise.

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this one is shorter because it's more important and explains some back story, comment what you guys think SHOULD happen
i've got nothing planned so i'm free to any ideas or theories 😉
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