The Rolling Girl

Chapter 5: Confused and Conflicted

Miku's POV:

I just finished wrapping my head with bandages and had pulled my hood over my head when a door swung open and the person standing there said my name.

"Are you really here? Why aren't you dead? Am I hallucinating?" He asked. I recognized him. It was Len Kagamine, one of the most popular boys at school.

I looked over at him. "Yeah...yeah I'm here. But I shouldn't be right? I should just go kill myself right?"

"W...WHAT!?" He cried. "NO! Of course not!"

I looked back down at my shoes and continued to walk.

"Miku wait!" Len called. He caught up to me and started walking WITH me.

"Why are you following me?" I whispered. Was he going to hurt me like...like HIM?

"Do you mind if I walk with you?" He asked. "I just...I think this might be a dream."

I glanced over at Len. "What are you talking about!?"

"I...I guess I just maybe had a nightmare where you died." He announced confusedly.

My stomach growled super loudly. I hung my head in embarrassment.

"Hey if your hungry you can come over to my house for breakfast!" Len offered.

"N...no thank you. I'm not hungry." I mumbled. Come to his HOUSE!? Like where he LIVED!? That was even worse than being in the school with HIM when everyone was in their classes! At least then I could have an escape route! 

My stomach growled again.

"Are you sure about that?" Len laughed.

"I'm just going to get myself a coffee later." I announced.

"So where are you headed?" Len asked

"School." I replied. Why did he want to know...

"This early!?" Len yelled. He looked so confused.

"Yes. I...uh...live far away." I lied. I didn't want to tell him I had left so that my mother didn't have a chance to hurt me. Then I remembered something he had said and stopped dead in my tracks.

Len stopped too.

"You dream about me?" I asked.

"Uh..."

"But you don't even know me!" I cried.

"Y...yeah weird. Well I guess I should introduce myself...my name is..."

"I know who YOU are." I sighed. "You're Len Kagamine. Everyone knows who YOU are. I want to know how YOU know ME."

"Um...we're in the same class, and you sit one row ahead of me? Oh! You also played at that recital." Len said nervously.

"Oh...you were there?"

"Yeah. Your piece was amazing! Did you really make it up by yourself?" He asked.

I started fiddling with a strand of my hair. A nervous habit I had never been able to get rid of. "Y...yes..."

"Wow! That's so cool. You could go onto AGT or something!" Len smiled his million dollar smile that made his fan-girls swoon.

"No...I'll never be able to do that." I sighed. Just imagining it made me sick. Mother would probably ACTUALLY murder me if I did that. Especially since father went on AGT.

Len gave me a questioning look as if to say: "WHY THE HECK NOT!?" But I pretended not to see.

We walked for a while in silence. The silence made me even more nervous. Every time Len had moved his hands while he was talking I thought he was going to grab or hit me. And every time he had opened his mouth I waited to hear an insult.

But they never came. He always either said something nice, or something random. Both of which caught me off guard so I actually answered. I wasn't used to talking this much.

Len followed me into the coffee shop and insisted on buying my things for me. He also forced me to buy a muffin. I didn't want to eat it, but I got so hungry.

I was a little embarrassed when I saw him watching how much sugar and cream I put into my coffee. I DID put in a lot, enough to make it taste like a dessert. Instead of laughing AT me, he smiled and said HE DID IT TOO! I watched him put in his sugar and cream and it was TRUE. Or he only did it to make fun of me...

Now he was dragging me down the hall to the classroom. It had scared me at first when he grabbed my hand and started running. Where was he trying to take me!? I yanked my hand back.

Len turned to face me. "Come on we're going to be late for class!" He grabbed my arm again and bolted madly down the hall.

We made it into the classroom just as the bell rang.

I went to my desk. Oh... Ruko was at the desk next ti mine. Ruko Yokune was the girl with the black ponytail. Sometimes she put them in messy pigtails but she stopped once she had realized that it was pointless to try to bully me out of wearing them.

She smiled at me with an evil glint in her eyes. Messaging that I was going to get it later. I could feel my hands start to sweat already.

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The bell rang for lunch. The muffin from this morning had made me realize how hungry I really was. If I hadn't eaten then I would've been able to ignore my stomach. That meant I was going to lose my piano time, unless I ate REALLY quickly.

But then...I didn't have enough money to buy anything except maybe an apple and a coffee. I guess that's enough.

I grabbed the apple and coffee and went to sit ALL the way in the back. I sat down and saw Len and his pink haired friend from before. They were sitting a row ahead and one row over. Len put his sandwich down and said something to Luki. Then he came over to me.

"Hey, want to come eat with Luki and I?"

"Oh, uh...n...no thank you." I shook my head.

"Okay. I'll just sit here then, if you don't mind of course." He added slyly.

I shook my head again. "I...I don't mind..."

"Great! Hey is that all you're eating?" Len asked.

I couldn't lie and say I had a big breakfast since he had BEEN there and knew all I had eaten was a small muffin. "I uh..."

Then I happened to spot Ruko, she was glaring at me and when I caught her eye she mouthed something at me. I sank down in my chair.

"I packed myself a lunch and ate it on the way to the cafeteria." I explained as I stood.

"Where are you going?" Len asked and stood up too.

"The bathroom." I ran off. He wouldn't follow me THERE right? I mean, HE had once but...

Why was Len acting nice to me? Why was the most popular boy in school even TALKING to me? What did he want? 

Of course I knew what he wanted. He wanted a chance to get in on the bullying. 

But then why had he stood up for me when Ruko was hurting me? If he really wanted to bully me he would have joined in...right?

Unless Len was like HIM...

I shuddered. I knew I shouldn't trust him. He had given me no reason to DISTRUST him, but no one was ever nice to me without a huge catch. And the catch was usually my pain.