Problems (EDITING)

#24. Letters

ALMA'S POV

I get home and mom sees me.

Please no.

"Hi honey! How was school?" She asks.

"Horrible. Ruben ignored me all day then broke up with me during lunch for no reason." I say, depressed.

"Oh my god, baby. I'm so sorry!" She whimpers, wrapping me in a hug.

God, just let me be.

"Mom, all I want to do right now is eat some mint chocolate chip ice cream and watch some chick flicks."

"Oh, of course baby. You know where the ice cream is." I nod, and grab it out of the freezer. I go up to my room after grabbing a spoon and If I Stay. I don't do anything with them though. I set them on my dresser, not touching them after that.

I grab a notebook and a pen from my backpack. I rip out three blank pieces of paper from the notebook and start writing.

Dear Mum...
I am sorry. I have been cutting myself for about one year now. Ruben pushed me over the edge. Never forget that I love you, and that this is not your fault. It is my own for not telling you that I believe I suffer from depression. I was scared of what you would say, maybe think that I was 'damaged', and that I had to be 'fixed', or something like that.
Again, I am sorry. Always remember that I love you with all of my heart, andthat you had nothing, I repeat, NOTHING to do with my suicide.

I finish my moms letter, and fold it into thirds. I start on dads, which looks almost exactly like moms. Then I start on Sienna's letter. I want mom to send it to her.

Dear Sienna...
I'm so sorry. I know that I should have texted you before this point, before I reached the breaking point. But it only happened today. Ruben broke up with me, with no explanations to why he did. I love you, I really do. Seriously, if I were a guy I'd marry you.
No, I never told mum or dad that I cut, or that I suffered from depression, although I should have. Thought that they might tell me that I'm 'broken', and need to be 'fixed', or some shit like that.
Again, so sorry to do this, I just can't handle life anymore. Its not your fault I did this, not at all. I hope you have a happy life, and maybe date Chris for a while, and, Idk, get married to him if you don't drive him insane first.
Not your fault, love you, and I'll see you again. If Heaven is real, of course.

RUBEN'S POV

I get home, and I try not to get seen by my mom. I make it to my room undetected, and lock the door. I rip out a couple pieces of notebook paper, and grab a pen, writing my letters.

Dear mom..
I'm sorry to do this to you. Its not your fault. Alma cheated on me. I live you. I probably should have told you that I was depressed, but I was a coward and didn't. Please don't so anything stupid, and definitely don't marry another John.
Love you ~Ruben

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Dear guys..
Sorry. You are all awesome, and you are not the reason that I committed suicide. You should know by now that Alma cheated on me. Ya, that's why. I can't stand life anymore, all I see is a long, dark tunnel with no light at the end of it.
So, bye ~Ruben

Omg!! I was totally crying as I wrote this!! I won't tell you whether they commit suicide or not, but I will tell y'all this...

STOP BULLYING!!

Bullying absolutely sucks, and its no fun at all. For the person getting bullied, at least...

And when you have a problem in a relationship, don't just break up, talk it out! I had a huge misunderstanding with my ex, which caused him to cheat on me.

And I truly wish that it hadn't happened. I do.

So yeah.... I love y'all!

-ILoveFaylex