RT Complication!!

⚠️R.C.P Specials: Feeling Guilty⚠️

Doing another Robocar Poli specials editions!

And special shoutout to Voltronisbest for amazing ideas that you made! 💙

So first off!

*sips milk*

Roll the clip!

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Why does things need to be like this?

Why does things need to happen?

Why did he defended me?

Why do I even live?

Why...

I looked up again, tears flow from my eyes. Everyday is like this for me since 'that' incident happen.

As I grip his hand, waiting for him to wake up, even it's just a sudden movement is enough!

Breathing slowly pumps from his chest, as his eyes were like an enclosed space with no doors. He's like an octopus who has a lot of things connected to his body, in the worst way.

He's in a coma.

Probably the person who can I say the closest to me, Roy, was here, lying in the bed.

Looking lifeless.

And I know it's my fault.

My fault.

My whole fucking fault.

Each day that passes by, all I hope is him to wake up like nothing happen. Like he isn't heavily injured and just like before, strong and calm.

I wish.

"Poli, you're not leaving his side for a year now...you always sleep here." Amber grabbed her clip board as she checks his heart rate. I heard her sigh with the sadness in her tone as her hands kept going on the treatments.

"You know, you also aren't even yourself since he's under comatose. We talked about this for ten times that this is NOT your fault, Starsight."

I just kept crying. She's right. She's fucking right.

I am not myself anymore since this happen.

Drinking coffee for every hour just to keep myself awake, staring at the wall and hallucinating.

Skipping shifts, short tempered and violent and negative.

Who said I want to be like this?!

It haunts me everyday. It haunts my life, just to think about why, why did this happen to him.

When I know that it's me who shall be there and suffer for good.

She tapped my shoulder as she hands me a cup of coffee, "I know you are now a coffee addict. And I have no choice but to help you out."

I snatched the coffee immediately. And drank all of it in one go, doesn't matter if my mouth burns at this point.

My heart already became ashes before a drink can do nothing but temporary and short pain.

Cause this pain isn't gonna heal and turn back to it's normal shape.

I decided to not go to the shift today, because I just can't.

I don't want to do the mistake I did before.

"Roy! Are you sure you want to handle this ALONE?!" I yelled as he was holding on a huge metal bar that is keeping this house together.