Isn't She Lovely (h.s)

Chapter 5

Harry

"Harry!" I felt a hard jab to my cheek and I rolled over to face away from the perpetrator.

"Harry, sweetheart, It's time to get up!" I heard that cheeky voice and I could tell he was smiling as he poked my cheek again. I groaned and threw my pillow at him, hard.

"Ouch! Someone's cranky. Well we just landed in London!" I heard his voice perk up at the thought of being so close to seeing Eleanor again.

"Leave me alone Lou.." I rolled over and buried my head into the cushion. It felt so nice to just be able to relax for the first time in months. He sighed and stood up with a huff.

"Fine, suit yourself, I just thought you'd want to see Samantha today...but I guess not..." At the sound of her name I shot up like a rocket, anger and longing pumping through my veins. Samantha, hearing her name still sent butterflies swirling in my stomach. A rush of mixed emotions swirled through my head at the idea of seeing Sam again. An image of her the last time we talked still played behind my eyelids, I could practically see her standing there, a look of pity and, was that guilt?, swimming in her eyes. I didn't know how to feel about seeing her again. Part of me was giddy at the idea of seeing my lifelong best friend again, another part of me just wanted to scoop her up in my arms and kiss her fiercely, not giving her a chance to leave me again. To this day I still don't understand what happened in the airport all of those years ago. Things had been so great between us that summer, and I had slowly been gaining up the courage to ask her out on a proper date before I found out about the X-Factor audition. I thought she felt the same way about me that I felt about her. I thought she could feel the energy between us, but then, well, I'm still not sure what happened. When she was turning me down at the gate to my plane, I could see the tears pooling in her eyes as she forced the words out of her mouth. I never thought she would say no, especially not after what had happened earlier in the summer. I was at a complete loss, heart broken and very confused. Yet I wasn't quite sure that my chance with her was completely gone. I still loved her, and I was sure a part of me always would. But the last part of me... Well, that was the part of me that never wanted to see her again, that wanted her to pay for the way she treated me on that last day together. I wanted to scream and cry and curse all at the same time. It had been three years, and yet her rejection still stung like a fresh cut.

"What makes you think I want to see her?" I snapped back. I knew it was harsh, but what made Louis think I was going to be head over heels excited to see the girl that broke my heart three years before? He sighed and sat down in the chair next to me, putting his hand on my knee.

"Haz, I know you. No matter what you say I know you still love her. No matter how many girls you hook up with, no matter how many times you yell 'fuck Samantha' from the hotel balconies, I know you still care about her. Just tell her!" I could feel annoyance bubbling up in my chest as Louis tried to play therapist, acting like he knew my relationship with Sam. He'd never even met her before!

"I tried that already Lou! Remember? She doesn't love me. Why would I put myself through that pain again? I'm not ready to feel that rejection again from her..." I turned to look at Louis and he turned the right side of his mouth up into a sympathetic smile.

"Maybe you should just go talk to her, try and work things out. I know you miss her babe." I mulled the thought over in my head, all of my feelings for her wrestling for dominance.

"We'll Louis, I'm just not sure I'm ready to see her yet, and if she hasn't even tried to reach out to me in three years to even see how I'm doing, clearly she doesn't want to see me either. But I am going to mum's and I know they stay in touch, so maybe I'll ask and make sure she's doing ok or something..." I mumbled out grudgingly to appease Louis as I saw the pleading look on his face.