Life Outside the BAU

Chapter 14

We sat in the cold waiting room waiting for any news. Seconds felt like hours, minutes felt like years. Every breath I take takes away some of my hope, my courage. Why haven't they come back out? I have no idea if she is even alive. Garcia still sits beside me holding my hand, trying to comfort me. I can't be comforted. No one talks, they barely even look at me and even when they do their eyes are filled with sorrow. I see the doctor walking out to give us his expertise. I can't breath as he gets closer. My grip on Garcia's hand tightens and she notices because she squeeze's back. He stands right in front of me and I stand up as well. "Mr. Reid, Victoria made it through the surgery but she lost a lot of blood and she is very weak, but she is alive" My stomach sunk back to where it is supposed to be. I smiled so wide, I probably looked like a dork. My whole team walks over and hugs me showing me how concerned they were. They arn't my team, they are my family. I could never ask for a better family then them. "You can go see her now, but only one at a time" the doctor walks out of the room to attend to his other patients. I turn to JJ "You go Spence, she needs you" I smile and nod my head. I walk out of the room and down the hall. I am nervous to see her again, why am I nervous? My heart beats faster as I get right up to the door. Through the little glass I can see her on her bed sleeping. I slowly open the door so not to wake her. The room is warm and smells fresh. The walls are lined with pink flowers on the white paint. She is wrapped up in white thin blankets and has a hospital band on her wrist. I sit in the chair beside her bed and slowly grabbed her hand. She was hooked up to so many machines, around the head of her bed. Many flashing lights and noises coming from each one. I carefully kiss her ice cold hand. The T.V in the corner of the room is turned on to the news. The story about Victoria and I is on. I don't want to think about it, listen to what people 'think' happened, how they think we felt. I grabbed the remote and changed the channel to some show I have never seen before. I hold her cold hand in my in mine trying to warm it up. That tiny little blanket, she must be freezing. I walk into the hall way and look for the nearest nurse. I see one walking down the hallway so I stop her. "Excuse me Miss, do you have another thick blanket for my girlfriend she is freezing?" "Yes of course" she walks back in the direction she came and I re-enter the room. She still lye's there looking like the most beautiful angle I have ever seen. I move her hair out of her face and kiss her forehead. She is so thin she had to lose at least 20 pounds. As soon as she gets out of here I'm taking her out to a full steak dinner at the fanciest restaurant I can find. I hear a knock on the door and the nurse walks in with blankets in her hands. She smiled down on me with concern in her eyes. I wish people would stop looking at me like I'm a lost puppy, trying to find my way in the dark. She handed to two blankets and a pillow to me, one for her and a pillow and a blanket for myself. "I have a feeling you are going to be here for a while" She smiles again and walks out of the room slowly closing the door. I pick up the big thick wool blanket and put it over her. I fluff up her pillow and put it back under head. I curl up in my chair and wrap the blanket around myself. Before I fall asleep Morgan walks in the room. "Hey Spencer, I'm guessing your staying the night" "Yeah I want to be here when she wakes up" "Alright well I'm gonna leave, sleep tight" He lightly punches me in the shoulder as he walks out. I grab her hand, its much warmer now, and fall asleep to the sound of her breathing and the t.v. I fall asleep the second I close my eyes. Not long after I fall asleep the nightmares start. Victoria dies in my arms and there is nothing I can do to save her. The next dream, I'm running through a swamp and I get stuck no one else is around, no one can hear me scream. I wake up in a cold sweat, sweat dripping down my face. I turn and look at Victoria, she is still asleep. I push the blanket off me and stand up. I walk out of the room and towards the cafeteria. I'm starving, I need to eat something. I grab myself a muffin and an orange juice and walk back to the room. She is still asleep when I walk in so I grab a table from the corner of the room and sit down to my breakfast. I change the channel to the news. They have already moved on from us and onto another story. Something about a home invasion I wasn't really paying attention. I take a bite out of my muffin. It's the first thing I have eaten in a few days and my stomach is loving it. I ear the whole thing in 4 bites and quickly gulp down my juice. I am about get up and get something to satisfy my gurgling belly when I hear a shaky voice "You wanna grab me some when you go?" I turn to see Victoria's beautiful smile. She laughs at the expression on my face. I reach down and kiss her, "It's good to see your eyes" I blush as the word escape my lips. "It's good to see yours to, now my breakfast!" "I'm going I'm going" I walk through the hospital with a little jump to my step. I grab her and I another muffin and myself an orange juice. I grab her apple juice because she hates orange juice. I walk back to the room for a second time. I hand Victoria her food and I sit down with mine. The food doesn't last very long. "The doctor said you have to stay one more night for a couple more tests but after that you are free to go. She smiles when I say that. For the rest of the day we just talk and stay together I haden't left the room all day. Finally the second night rolled around. "Go home" "What?" She caught me off guard. "You need to go home and get some proper sleep, you can't sleep in that chair again tonight" "Are you sure? What if you need..." "Go home" "Alright" I leaned down and kissed her forehead again "Goodnight I love you" I grab my coat and my bag and walk out the door. I get half way through the hospital before I realize I don't have a vehicle here. I grab my phone and dial Morgan's number. "Hey Morgan, you want to come and pick me up?" "I was wondering how long you would tale before you realized you were stranded" I hear him laugh through the phone and he hangs up. I wait outside for about 20 minutes before I see his car pull up. I jump in the passenger seat. "Thanks" "No problem, so, how is she?" "She woke up, and she is doing great" "That's good, do you want me to come with you tonight, I mean it will be your first night alone?" "No I'm good but thanks" I am so tired I can barely make out full sentences. "Alright well here we are see you later" Morgan dropped me off at the front door to my apartment doors. I took the elevator up to my room. I walked in, everything was how I left it, the book, the papers, even my blankets were made the same way. I was almost expecting someone to be waiting here when I walked in. There was no one, I was being paranoid, but can you blame me? I curled up in my own bed falling asleep, waiting for the nightmares to come.