Night Time Sky - MCYT Fanfic

Sinking Deeper

"Hodokenai, mou hodokenai yo, shinjitsu sae"
[Even knowing the truth won't unravel me until my death.]

- Unravel, TK Ling Toshite Sigure

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Should I say, or should I not? That is the question that all four gamers are thinking about.

Hesitation creates tension, tension creates distrust, distrust creates distance.

In such situations, friends might drift apart.

But what else can they do?
Not saying anything would only make it worse. That's how the human brain works, the further you shut yourself in, the further you look like a creep, and then you sink deeper into the void of loneliness, unable to pull back the bonds you have made.

Because you shut yourself away before they can even accept you.
The tension between them would stress the bonds between the relationships that people have done. The pain would twist one's heart.

It would hurt.

It is the pain that brought the silence to life.
The pain of not telling.
The pain of regret.
The pain of belonging.
The pain of forgiveness.

But it is also the pain that reminds you that you still have feelings for people.
The pain of memories.
The pain of treasury.
The pain of unable-to-let-go.
The pain of believing.

And so you must listen to you heart, to say it out loud.

Well, it is only the matter of time that the barrier breaks.
It's only the time it takes for that one person to crack.

Then the rest cracks.

As the four sits silently at the table, waiting for breakfast, Bad can't take it anymore. The silence is creating tension of foreign feelings, feelings that give off uncomfortable distances.

"So... What's with the silence?" He asks.

"Dunno." George says, which sound like a lie.

"Okay, let me start this conversation. What are you guys hiding from me?" Bad finally asks the question, the question that hits home.

"What do you mean, Bad?" Sapnap asks. There was a bit of a pause after the question. The atmosphere is awkward.

"Okay, Sapnap, I noticed that plants die near you when you say you're hungry. Sometimes, when I feel sleepy, you said that you're hungry. I don't know what to say, can you explain this to me?"

"It's just a coincidence."

"Also, after seeing all these Japanese monsters' existence, I have started to question a lot of your behaviors. Dream, why are you going to the toilet straight after you have eaten?"

"Uh... Bad... Actually, everyone. I have something to tell you all." Dream says with hesitation.

"What is it?"

"I'm... I'm actually..."

"Don't tell me you're actually gay." Sapnap interrupts.

"No. I'm a ghoul."

Silence.

It was that easy to speak out about the disastrous bloodline, three syllables, a flap of the lips and tongue, and that's that.
But the heavy atmosphere that goes with it...

It feels like the four are trapped inside the truth.

The truth that their friend was in fact a race of blood and gore.

It wasn't nice, you know, but George and Sapnap aren't that shocked compare to Bad.
The aura was a big give-away. George has suspected, so did Sapnap.

Bad didn't expect that confession to happen.

"Wait... Are you telling me that you have been a human-eater the whole TIME?" He asks, quite shocked, but then he realized that what he had said was quite offending, "I'm sorry! I was just- I can't believe-"

"It's alright. You are right about ghouls anyway... They are basically human-eaters..."

"But wouldn't all of us be dead? Why didn't you eat us?"

"Because I'm not the type of person that eats what I consider my own kind."

Silence.
That reply makes no sense, but... At this point, who cares?

What did the information say? Ghouls have to keep eating human meat to survive.

Dream have been enduring, resisting the urge to eat human meat for the past... 4 years. Every since he started making friends online.

It's making him sick on the insides, but the people he is facing are his friends. His family. His fans. He can't do this to them.

And now the news is out.

They know.

They are sinking deeper...
This was a place I never want them to be.
But it's too late.
I've said it now...
What will happen to me?

They'll walk away.
They'll walk away, turn their backs on me-

They will be scared of me.

I don't want that.

"... Dream, I know it must be tough to be a ghoul who is denying and hiding about this fact..." George sighs, walking towards the Minecraft Speedrunner, patting his back, "... It must be tiring, right?"

A moment of silence, then a small reply, "Yeah..."

"We are still your friends. We will support you. We will be there when you need us."

"...So don't push us away before we can approach you, okay?"

Tears start to flow out.

It's rare for tears to flow out of Dream's eyes.

He had only cried in front of George for getting his colourblind glasses, once in front of Akira and now here.

It's an emotional moment.

No one can deny that.

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EVERYONE I'M SO SORRY I HAVE THREE DIFFERENT TESTS HAPPENING AT THE SAME TIME I'M SO SORRY PLEASE FORGIVE ME-