Luke's p.o.v
Dinner is actually going pretty well with Cathy and John, i'm glad I went tonight. They aren't the snobby rich people I thought they were. Dinner was really nice and now it's time for dessert, my favourite meal. I ordered a ice-cream sundae, with chocolate sauce and it's the best sundae i've ever had. John, Cathy and I got on really well tonight, we have definitely gotten closer because of tonight. This is the same restaurant Belle and I went to and Ariana is working, again. She asked me if I was single and I immediately said no. There is no way in hell I'm getting back with her, not when I have Belle.
Once Cathy and John have finished their dessert and coffee, we pay and head outside. The time is 11:00pm and I could do with some rest. We all jump in the car and head home to get some rest. We arrive and i'm not sure if I should tell them I had a good time. Maybe I should. "I had a good time, thanks for that mum and d-" Shit
Shit
Shit
"I-I um m-m-meant Cathy and John. S-sorry" They look a little shocked but then happy at the same time.
"It's okay Luke, we are glad you had a good time. We're going to go to bed now, we'll see you in the morning" I go to bed the same time they and I fall asleep as soon as I hit that pillow.
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I wake up to the sound of my phone ringing and before I can answer the phone call it ends. I have 3 missed calls 2 from a number I haven't seen and another one I haven't seen. Just as I was going to call them back the first number appears again and I answer it.
"Hello"
"L-luke, is that you?"
"Yes this is Luke" who is this?
"Hi, well, y-yes. T-this is B-b-Belles dad, I need you to come over. I'm sorry it's late but I n-need you to come o-over now" it sounds like he is sobbing. Is Belle okay? I hope she is. I hang up and run to my car. I don't bother about putting on normal clothes I just stay in my Pj's. I do over the speed so I can get there a lot quicker. I'm actually really scared. I don't want Belle to be hurt.
When I pull into Belles driveway there is an ambulance and I feel like my heart is going to break through my chest. I race up to the door and walk straight through. "Where's Belle?" I say, I look over at her dad and her sister, they are all crying. Bec isn't anywhere to be seen. "Luke, Belle, she, she committed suicid-" his voice break and he starts sobbing and I mean full on sobbing. Once I hear the words I start to cry myself. I break down in tears and it feels like I can't fucking breathe anymore. She's gone. She can't be gone. She's not gone.
After an hour of constant crying I physically can't cry anymore today until her dad brings out a piece of paper with my name on it. I hesitate to open the letter but I do, it reads;
Dear Luke,
I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel I can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. I'm sorry that I didn't talk to you about it or anyone. Its so hard to talk when you want to kill yourself. That's above and beyond everything else, and it's not a mental complaint-it's a physical thing, like it's physically hard to open your mouth and make the words come out. They don't come out smooth and in conjunction with your brain the way normal people's words do; they come out in chunks as if from a crushed-ice dispenser; you stumble on them as they gather behind your lower lip. So you just keep quiet. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that - everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been.
There used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. We'd be hanging out somewhere and everything would just fit right and I would think 'it will be okay if it can just be like this forever' but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever.
I am going to put myself to sleep now for a bit longer than usual. Call it Eternity but I'm always going to be here, guiding you and protecting you.
I love you Luke. I shall see you when you time comes and I hope that is many years to come.
Yours sincerely
Belle xo
When I finish reading the letter she left me, I break down. I look up and Ash, Michael, Calum, Emma and Lizzy are all here, crying. I can't help but run to them and hug them. I want some peace and quiet but I don't want to be alone. I still think she is here and she's going to jump out and tell me it's all a joke and that we can live happily ever after. But this is no fairytale.
A/n: sad. Sad. Poor Belle. She's in a better place now. Now I know this might seem like the end but it's not, I'm going to write one or two more chapters and then it should be over. I will publish another book a little bit after this book so when I do, you should all go check it out. Mwah x
