Deserve Better

Choose

Authors note: I'm sorry for Peter being absolutely awful in this book. I really love Peter to but I needed him to play the bad guy and womanizer in this..... sorry 😭

Eric didn't come by last night. He told me I needed sleep. Tomorrow I will learn how to accurately lie, even to the most Candor of people. Than I will learn more about the faction system and how it works, and how meetings with other factions work. I'll learn what my job as a leader will be and more about how my faction works.

All this sounded like a lot to master in only two weeks. I feel my heart in my chest when I see Peter. He has this sickening smirk plastered on him as he walked in the room where me and Eric have been working for the last 5 minutes.

"Your late." Eric said. "Only by five minutes." Peter said taking his seat. Eric looked at his watch. "Next time your late I'll hang you over the chasm." He says as if it's nothing serious. "Punctuality is key as a leader. If another leader was training you initiate they might not have been so nice." He said. His eyes are like knives. One look at Peter and the boy squirms in his seat, well usually. Today he kept his smirk. I felt my stomach churning. "Anyway what I was saying was that......." it

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"I've thought about your little proposition," Peter said after training. Eric had some matters to take care of. "I need to show you something to show you that I mean I really do want a truce." He said. "I really am sorry about the last time. And I won't try to do something like that again." I cross my arms. He looks so kind and genuine. "Walk with me? Please I really do, mean it." He says after I roll my eyes and turn around. "I'll walk with you, if I get a knife." He nods. "Anything."

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I grip the knife in my pocket, ready to pull it out and start slashing at moments notice. He pointed me down an old abandoned hall that we hadn't even seen in initiation. "This leads to another stairwell." He said. "Come on." He lead the way.

An old stairwell was there it Peter forced me inside the door, where two Dauntless grabbed my arms. "I try to draw my knife." "Let her go!" Peter yelled. They let me go. What had I just walked into? "Hey, it's okay." Peter said gripping my arm reassuringly. "What is this?" I ask him. "It's a little club I formed." He said steering me around the corner. "Unfortunately, your little friend, didn't make the cut." He opened another door, and shoved me in. "Go at me with the knife and she dies."

I ball up my fist. "Alexis!" I yell. She try's to tell me something but the guards on her seem tense up, and she stops. She dost look scared for herself though. "Why am I here? W-why is she here." I'm at loss for words. "Look here's the deal. Your going to clear everything up with  your buddy Eric, and then your gonna do whatever I say." He smiles. "Or she dies." My eyes widen. "Choose."

I know what he wants from me, but I don't want to give it to him. As Dauntless as I've become recently the abnegation in me wants to do everything to make sure she is safe. "If I do what you want she's safe?" He nods. Alexis shakes her head furiously. "Fine!" I say. "Erudite, give her the serum." What. "What" I say. "She won't remember any of this." He said. "Now put down the knife." He said as the Erudite prepares the serum feverishly. "If you fight back she dies." Peter said. "Okay."
I hold out my hands and he bounds them with some sort of handcuffs. "Follow me, Amity." And with that I was dragged off to his bedroom to suffer in silence.

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I walked back to my room with red cheeks. I felt ashamed. I kept my head down. Would I be to damaged to be a leader after this? Now I would have to convince Eric he was a good person, even thought it would be the biggest lie of my life. Eric could sniff out lies, it was part of his job, this would be a great victory to Peter if I won.

I get to my brand new room that I got in reward for completing initiation. I broke down into tears. Alexis would be okay though, that was enough right? Didn't I deserve better than this though? I let my strong body give out. I collapsed to my knees and sob. Why me? It was because I was amity and I was pretty. I just wanted to have a home that was safe. No where is safe for me. It never will be.

Why did everyone I love get hurt? I couldn't answer that. Why was it always my fault? I can't tell you that either.

I went to the bathroom to cover up the marks Peter already left. I used some foundation on them and put on a shirt that didn't show my shoulders or collarbones. My neck was covered by my vest.

I hear a knock on the door and I open it. "Y/n what happened?" It was Alexis and she didn't remember. I let her in and she sits on the couch, I sit beside her. "I don't wanna y'all about it." I stuttered as I fell into her arms and just sob. "Okay." He said rubbing circles on my back. I used to be strong. Now I was weak. No more than a puppet to Peter. No more than a toy.

After a few minutes of that I calmed down. "Do you want me to get Eric?" I do want Eric, I want him to kill Peter. But I can't, even with Peter dead I don't want to risk any life but my own. "Not right now, I'll talk to him later." She nods. "I have a shift in a few minutes and I have o leave. Are you sure you don't want Eric?"  I nod and wipe my nose. "Y-yeah." She smiled sadly at me. "Okay." And she leaves.

After an hour or so I knew it was time to convince Eric my eyes were slightly red, but I would tell him me and Peter had gone drinking. I stand up shakily. I hated being vulnerable. I hated being afraid.

I walked to Erics apartment and did the little knock forcing a smile on my face. I must convince him, I think, I must. Then the door opens and I step in.

A/n: this chapter absolutely sucks and im sorry, I can't write. 😭 thank you if your enjoying it though. Let me know.