Borderline

Session Four Chapter 6

Sophomore year is when things really started to change. Clarissa changed. She always wanted more from Sebastian, more time, more attention, she wanted him to step back from his sister, be his own person. Sebastian had a passion for football that he gave up since the Jonathan incident and he didn't want to do anything to jeopardize Sophie's happiness.
"Sophie, we need to talk" Clarissa said as she bombarded Sophie in the girls bathroom at the end of a day at school.
"Well, spit it out Clarissa, it seems I don't have a choice anyway seeing as you cornered me in the bathroom" Sophie, sensing the change in Clarissa and the constant push she put on Sebastian and his relationship with her, could only be hostile toward her.
"See that's your problem right there. You only think of you. Always on the defensive always the victim." Clarissa said as she brushed her hand through hair, frustrated. "You need to let Sebastian try out for the football team"
"I'm not stopping Sebastian from doing anything, he can do whatever her pleases. If I can stop from doing something it'd be you"
"Don't play games with me. You need to tell Sebastian that you're perfectly happy and you'd be ok if he tries out for the football team. I know you want him to be happy, can see that. He always sacrifices for you so you'd be happy, it's about time you did the same for him" Sophie despised so much that she was right.
"Fine. I'll talk to Sebastian. Now please leave me alone and don't approach me ever again"
Sophie talked to Sebastian. It took some convincing and a lot of talks and 'are you sures' but in the end Sebastian tried out for the football team and made the cut.
"Ok so celebrations are at the café out by the middle school, not the one next to us, since my girlfriend dated one of the barista's brother and wants to avoid the awkwardness" Sebastian joked to his new teammates.
"Shut up we're going there because it's nicer and more spacious for all of us" Clarissa said. Sophie was shocked to see them joking and being so happy. Would this ever be her?
"Hey Seb, you guys go on I'm gonna head home. You know me and crowds don't really mix and I really want to finish that book I've been reading." Sophie told Sebastian as she pulled him aside for a moment of privacy. "And before you say it yes I'll be okay. Go off and have fun" Sophie stepped out to the school parking lot, but instead of being true to her word to Sebastian she went to the grey busted up car that belonged to a junior in their school, Jared. He was sitting inside.
"I need you to hook me up." She told him. "Woah, we have the crazy girl here in person. I was wondering when you would come to me, I just thought you had a different dealer" he said. "Just give me something that'll make me seem normal" Sophie told him. "Well, sorry to say this but there's no such thing in my stash" he stated as he lit up a cigarette. "I have Cocaine, Meth and Heroin"
"Ok just give me anything that'll make this feeling of whatever go away"
"Don't worry I've got you covered"
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Dr. Claremont sat in silence as he listened to my story.
"What no observations, no questions this time? You can't tell me you've lost interest already" I commented.
"I'm just letting the story sit with me. So I'm presuming Sophie started using drugs regularly after that" the doctor commented still seemingly in that daze.
"Yup, pretty much addicted. I thought I'd give Sophie a little aspect of my story you know. A good writer always pours themselves into their characters."
"Do you want us to starts addressing your addiction? Is that why you incorporated it into your story?" He was good. I've been seeing Dr. Claremont for over a year now and he'd always try to talk to me about my drug problems, and I always evaded. Just like I was about to do now.
"You know doc, I'd rather we completed Sophie's story before we got back to my own"