KABANATA 13
Bet
Nagising ako dahil sa kulog na nagmula sa labas. Gabi na at rinig ko ang basic ng hampas ng alon sa dagat. I bite my lower lips bago nagpasyang tumayo sa higaan ko. Uno wasn't beside me at hindi ko rin alam kung saan ito natulog.
Only dim lights were open downstair. I went inside the kitchen. Naalala kong hindi pa pala ako kumakain ng hapunan. May natirang pagkain sa ref and I microwaved it. Sobrang pino ng mga galaw ko. As much as possible I don't wanna make any sounds. Ayokong magising si Uno ng dahil sa akin.
His words still hunts my mind. Hindi ko magawang iwaglit. Natuwa nga ako ng magawa ko pang nakatulog pero lam kong bukas pa rin ang diwa ko doon. My eyes were close but my mind was floating.
Pinapaasa ba ako ni Uno? Hindi ko alam kung ano ang takbo ng utak niya. Sana naman y hindi niya ako pinaglalaruan. Ayokong madagdagan na naman ang pagtingin ko sa kanya. I am starting to move on! Pero kung sa simpleng salita niya lang ay bumabalik na kaagad. Ganoon ba ako karupok pgdating sa kanya?
I squeezed my forehead and started washing the plates. Bago tuluyang umakyat sa taas ay uminom muna ako ng isang basong gatas nagbabasakaling makatulog muli. It is still 9 o'clock in the evening. May sapat pang oras para matulog uli. I don't have ny gadgets o anu mang bagay na mapagdidiskithan. Seems like takot na rin akong maligo na ako lang at mag-isa. My horror at the water still hunt me. Iyong iisipin ko lang na iyon na ang huli kong tapak sa mundo.
I brought some apples at my room and put it on the bedside table. Hindi talaga ako dinadalaw ng antok. I turned on the television and opted watching movies. Pinili ko iyong action movies. I lower down the volume.
I didn't know that this is some kind of erotic movie. I almost got a gosebump while watching the man massaged the woman's bosom. Palagi akong napapalunok. It wasn't even censored. I was about to skip the bed scene part more like kitchen scene but the remote malfunctioned! Doon pumasok si Uno with his forehead creased. Pagpasok pa lang sa kwarto ay mapapansin kaagad ang malaking tv. He probably saw the scene.
"What are you watching?" He sounds accusing me of something bad!
I pouted my lips. Wala akong kasalanan!
"I was just watching action movie. I didn't know that they have this kind of dirty scenes! Do not accuse me as if I really like it."
"Then fast forward it, Azure," may diin nitong wika.
"I think the remote is broken. It won't work-"
Kung may definition ng bastos malamang ay si Uno iyon. He grabbed the remote in my hand harshly. Tumalim ang tingin ko rito.
"See... It's working," nakangising wika ng gago.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Here he goes with his malicious stares at me. "B-But... Don'T give me that look!"
"Baka talgang gusto mo manood, Azure."
"I am not sex starve, Mr. Zachariah! I am not like you."
"I am satisfied by just looking at you, Azure."
I scoffed, annoyed with his sugar coated words.
"Huwag mo akong paasahin, Uno. It does't mean that I am inlove with you ay pwede mo na akong paglaruan."
I took a gulped. Nabara bigla ang lalamunan ko sa aking sinabi. But that's true! Ayokong pinapaasa ako. Iyon ang ayaw ko sa lahat. Giving me false hope and then what? Leaving me alove after? Huwag na lang!
"Do you really think of me like that? Giving woman false hope?" Umiwas ako ng tingin.
I didn't heard Uno having woman in his life. Kung tutuusin pangalan ko lang ang naririnig ko. He's more serious when it comes to woman, they said. Hindi kagaya ni Tres at Cuatro na kaliwa't kanan ang mga babae.
