The Mountains

Chapter 17

As we head out, i notice harry sneaking stares at me the whole ride.

"how much longer do we have" harry asks louis.

"about 30 minutes haz. here use some earbuds and entertain yourself" lou says throwing him a pair.

"thank you" harry says.

he begins playing his music and i hear it over his earbuds.

he's listening to "this town" by niall horan.

my heart breaks when i see a tear slide down his cheek.

i try to pretend like i don't see it. I notice him quickly wipe it.

and i wanna tell you everything the words i never got to say the first time around.

i hear his music still.

if the whole world was watching i'd still dance with you

i find myself tear up.

I notice harry staring at me
"you ok?" he says with a red nose.

i nod and turn my head to the window

and i know that it's wrong that i can't move on but there's something about you

i put my hand over my mouth to muffle my cry.

i hear my phone chime.

*Harry

H-hey, we got this ☺️

i dry my tears and look to him and nod. he dried his and smiles widely.

Time and time passes and we finally arrive to the theater.

*nothing interesting happens*

after the movie is finished, the sun sets. We get back into the car and head to the light show. We soon arrive and begin strolling through the lanes. Lou and el walk in front and me and harry behind them, a distance apart.

i look at el and lou, in love. The way he treats her is something i'll always want. I see them smiling and laughing having a good time.

i smile to myself as i watch them.

"The lights are pretty" harry says starting conversation

"they truly are." i agree and smile.

an hour later we finish the lights and head back to the cabins

"are we still having a sleepover" harry whispers to me.

i nod and he smiles.

We pull into the cabin and lou sees me and harry walk towards my room togther. lou pulls harry to the side

"hey man, don't hook up with her. she's hurting" lou says upset

harry nods and catches up with me. He opens my door for me and i walk in first.

He sits on the couch and i sit on the bed. It's awkward until he finally speaks.

"ok we said we were gonna be best friends. what's happening here" he laughs

i laugh back
"i don't know come get in bed. We can watch riverdale" i say

he smiles and walks over. I lay towards the wall and he takes the edge.

he grabs the remote and plays the show.

i find myself shivering from the cold air swarming outside, seeming into my room.

"are you cold" he asks turning and facing me smiling

"yes i am. see feel" i say quickly putting my cold feet on him making him jump

"heyyyy! that was uncalled for" he says play tackling me.

We ross and tumble and he soon throws me over his shoulder and play body slams me to the bed. We both become laughing messes. As i'm about to get up, i find him hovering over me. i feel his warm breathe on my face.

"i'm sorry" he says while getting off of me.

"it's okay" i say as we lay back down in the bed and cover up

"i'm still cold" i say laughing

"i can't even" he says sassily making me laugh.

"come here. Best friends cuddle too" he says putting an arm out.

i lay on his arm and place my head on his chest and we watch riverdale.

i miss him.

my phone rings

*Timothee

T- hey y/n! just calling to see how you are? i miss you

y/n- oh hey. yeah i'm good. me lou el and harry went out tonight and harrys staying with me for tonight

Harry- Hey timmy!

T- hey harry!

y/n- i miss you when are you coming home

T- not tomorrow but the next day

we talk for a bit then hang up. I see harry dazed off.

"so" he begins

"do you like timothée"

i shake my head no
"he's just a friend" i admit

"you guys didn't do anything the other night when he stayed? like anything?" harry says turning to face me again.

i shake my head no.
"he heard me crying and came over to watch a movie and we fell asleep" i say truthfully

"you were crying?" harry says upset

i nod.

"over me?" he asks

i nod again.

he pulls me into his arms.
"i'm so sorry"

i sob into his arms.

"it's hard i know but we will fight through this" he says kissing my head.

"i don't know" i cry harder

"hey look at me. It's gonna be okay. i'm here with you." he says drying my tears with his thumb.

"there we go" he says while i smile.

i fucking miss him.

i lay in his arms for a few minutes.

"i miss you so much" he says looking up to the ceiling. i turn my head and see a tear slip down his cheek.

"please don't cry" i say while crying

i reach down and hold his hand

"maybe we can fix things one day. let's just work with what we have for now" i say smiling at him

"can i take off my shirt or is that weird" he asks looking at me

"go ahead" i laugh.

i know he can't sleep with a shirt on.

He takes it off and lays down beside me.

i lay on his chest and he wraps both arms around me. i listen to the sound of his heart beating.

"i'm going to get help for my anger" he says randomly.

i use my finger to trace the butterfly tattoo on his ribs.
"yeah?" i ask

"yeah. they have gotten out of control. I'm going to call and make an appointment for a therapist tomorrow morning"

i smile
"that's good".

he nods.

"oh i forgot to tell you, i'm going to a party tomorrow. do you want to come with me? i know el and lou won't go." i ask

"of course" he says and we slowly fall asleep in each other's arms.