The Mountains

Chapter 11

"harry" i say

"yes baby" he says holding me

"i need to get up" i mumble

"why" he asks

"i need to go to the lobby" i lie. i can use go to bathroom in piece downstairs.

"no" he says not letting me get up.

"please" i begin crying.

he switches on the lamp beside us and looks me in the eyes

"baby why are you crying? did i do something"

i shake my head no
"i ate too much" i cry and fall into his arms
"and you're going to leave me because i'm so messed up"

he pulls away and looks at me dead in the face
"i would never baby. don't ever say that. you're mine and only mind for the rest of our lives" he says tearing up.

he lays you back down to the bed and turns off the lights. He wraps his arms around your waist and you soon fall asleep.

you wake up in the same position you fell asleep in.

you manage to squeeze out of harrys arms and make the way to the restroom. You notice your legs still shaking.

you don't throw up, the food is already digested.

you look into the mirror at your reflection. you pull at the skin around your stomach.

shortly after you pull out the scale. you step on it and the number you see horrifies you.

you sit down on the bathroom floor near the sink and cry.

"baby? where are you?" you hear harry call as he stands up.

you jump up and walk out of the bathroom.

he sees you.

"hey hey hey"he grabs your hands

"what were you doing" he says with tears in his eyes

"i was weighing myself" i say looking down. i knew he would be disappointed

"baby come here" he brings me into a hug
"i'm throwing the scale away you don't need it anymore." he says letting me go and walking to the bathroom. he picks up the scale and slides on his pants and shirt.

he looks at you
"i see your thighs are still shaking" he smirks making you laugh

"do you want to walk with me to the dumpster?" he asks

i nod and put my clothes on.

On the way out, we run into lou.

"where you guys headed" he asks with his arms crossed
"why are you so shaky" he asks me

"she keeps weighing herself so i'm throwing her scale away" harry says only answering the first half.

lou smiles and hugs me and harry.

As he steps out of the way, me and harry head to the dumpster

he tosses the scale in and i hear it shatter.

"all gone" he says smiling

he pulls me into a kiss which last 20 seconds.

we soon head back in.

as we get into the building we see lou and el getting coffee in the lobby area.

we walk over to them and lou begins talking to us.
"y/n it may be better for you to come back to my room. you can have the couch. i thinks it's safer si me and el can both be with you when you relapse"