5.3.18
You will always learn something about love from those who had no intentions of loving you in the first place. And I knew you did not love me when I drove thousands of miles, only to feel separated thousands of miles even when you were right beside me.
Love is not a reward for sacrifice and that is the hardest thing I've had to learn with you.
I knew I was wrong when I endured many dangers just to feel the safety of your arms around my waist. I mistook your dangers for safety, mistook your faults for my own.
All this time I felt I was never good enough, and I knew you had no intention to stay, but for you I was willing to throw it all away. I lost myself in you, and I thought I liked who I was with you.
All this time, I didn't know I needed to be saved, then I learned I had saved myself forgetting you.
