"Uhhhhh....." say something, say something, say something! He can't see you like this, what if he judges you?! What if he's like your parents?! "Gimmie a minute!"
I quickly run up the stairs and take my skirt off, throwing on a pair of sweatpants and just throwing a hoodie over my shirt.
I should probably hide the rest of these clothes...where though?
I decided to just bunch them all up in a pile and throw a blanket over them. Fuuuuuuck, damn half and half bastard!
I stomp down the stairs and throw open the door, glaring at him "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?!" You interrupted my me-time, so sorry if I'm not the nicest person right now!
"Jeez, you're rude. I'm here to work on our project." As stoic as ever, how worth interrupting me.
Then, what he said registered, "PROJECT?!"
He sighs, looking a little annoyed. That's new? "Yes, Bakugo. We agreed on meeting to work on it a week ago. Tell me you haven't forgotten?" At least he's showing some emotion.
I'm a little disappointed he's annoyed by me though-WHAT THE FUCK?! Do I like him?!
"Bakugo, answer me." I hope I'm still in the submissive headspace that comes with being home, that has to be the reason I answer him almost immediately.
"Yeah, I forgot. Sorry." I'm still in listen to everyone mode, that has to be the reason. That's probably why I said sorry and why I want to make him feel happy.
If only I could tell the difference between being used to listening without asking questions or having a crush on him.
I snap out of my thoughts, no reason to worry about that now. I have got to get him out of here ASAP!
When I look back up at him, he's staring at me. He's barely showing any emotion, but I can still see he's both surprised and curious. "Um...do you mind if I make a phone call?"
"It's your house, do whatever you want. I'm in no rush." That's the problem, I need to get you in a rush to leave.
"Just go upstairs to my room, first door on the right." He walks inside and kicks his shoes off without another word and I immediately go outside to talk to Deku.
He picks up on the first ring, and as soon as he says "hey," I go off on a rant.
"I forgot I agreed to work on a project with Todoroki last week and now he's here and I don't know what to do when he knocked I quickly hid everything and I think I snapped out of listen immediately mode but I'm not sure because I felt disappointed in myself when he sounded annoyed with me and I had this feeling like I wanted to make him feel better and now I don't know if I have feelings for him or if I'm just in that headspace and I need your help cause I'm not good with my emotions and you're my best friend so you have to tell me what to feel!"
"First, slow down and take a deep breath." I take an over-exaggerated breath so he can hear me and he laughs a little before continuing, "now, stop pacing and sit down 'cause I know you are" I realize I was pacing and I sit down on the curb, "you're not in that headspace."
"How am I not?!"
"Because with the way you're talking and arguing, there's no way you could be. Plus, have you ever been able to talk this much without pausing or apologizing?"
He probably knows me better than me, "I pause?"
"You totally do. Anyway, you like Todoroki, there's no doubt about it."
"Well....what do I do about it?" I sound like a scared little kid and I honestly kind of feel like one too, "I-I've never done anything with anyone, because of my problem-"
"Stop it, now!" He cuts me off before I can go into detail. "It's not a problem, you dressing the way you want is just you being you. If whoever you're around doesn't accept that, you need to leave them because that is not ok. You don't have to tell anyone when you first start dating them, but if you don't tell them in the first week, I will. Your partners all deserve to know and you owe it to yourself to be happy. You need someone besides just me you can be around and feel safe."
He stops for a second and I take that as my opportunity to try and stop myself from crying by making a joke, "I feel safe and comfortable around your mom."
I can actually hear him facepalm from how hard he hits himself and I laugh a little. He groans and sighs, "you know what I mean, someone our age. Katsuki, you need a partner, or a lover, or whatever you want to call it. You need a protector to take care of you, someone who can show you you're loved in a way that no friend ever could. I need you to promise me you'll at least try with Todoroki."
He's right, I really do feel lonely. I just want someone to cuddle with me and spoil me and protect me. I want a safe place where I can live and be myself all the time. I can feel myself starting to get bad again lately, I think having to deal with this stupid time restraint is finally getting to me.
"Ok, I promise."
"Promise what, Kacchan?"
"....I promise to try and act on these feelings I have for Todoroki."
"Good, now go get your mans!"
"Wha-" THE BASTARD HUNG UP ON ME!
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Started writing: August 1st, 2020
Finished writing: August 1st, 2020
Published: November 7th, 2020
Words: 969
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Am I Allowed To Be?《Shoto X Femboy Bakugo》
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