I'm the first one done so I just put my plate in the sink and sit back down. This time, Bakugo reaches for my hand and I can't express enough just how happy that makes me.
I think he likes me back.
Bakugo finishes second but instead of getting up he just holds my hand tighter. He still seems scared of something. Am I missing something? What's this code they're talking in all about?
After Midoriya's done, we all go back to the living room and I decide to just sit on the floor this time instead of sitting next to Bakugo. Whatever they're hiding seems to be really serious and I want to sit across from them when we talk about it.
"Alright.....before I tell you my basically biggest secret, I need you to promise you won't yell." This time, Bakugo talks first. His voice is nothing but pure anxiety and I'm really worried about him. Why does he think I'll yell?
"I promise I won't yell." It feels weird that they'd think I would yell. Of all people, me?
"If you do yell and you make him have a panic attack, you'll have to deal with me." The only time I've heard Midoriya sound so serious was when he was talking to the Bakugos and it makes me feel worried.
"I won't yell." How bad could this secret be?
"Alright.....um, how do I say this? So, you know how there's like tomboys and stuff? Like, girls who like to wear boy's clothes instead of dresses and stuff?" I just nod and he starts to look even more worried "well...I'm the opposite."
Opposite? Like he likes to wear girl's clothes? That's the big secret? I look up from the floor and back at him and notice he's got his eyes closed and he's grimacing like he expects me to yell at him and kick him out.
Wonder if his parents did that? Well, I'm not gonna be toxic. Hopefully, he'll eventually be ok wearing them around me, I want him to be comfortable. "Ok." I want to smack myself, why is that the response I come up with?!
He sits up and stares at me, his mouth hanging open in shock. "Ok?"
"Yeah, that's ok with me. Did you really think it matters to me at all what you like to wear? I'm not a homophobe. Even if you are gay, that wouldn't matter to me either. I'm the gayest person ever. As long as you're happy, you can wear or like whoever and whatever you want." Where did all that come from?
He jumps off the couch and lands on top of me, knocking us both over. I'm a little surprised by the sudden hug, so my reaction's a little delayed when I hug him back.
I get scared when I feel my shoulder start to get wet, is he crying?
Oh no, did I say something wrong? Did I make him cry? This is why I don't talk, I always say the wrong thing! If Midoriya beats me up for this I'm sure I deserve it. I'm such a fucking idiot!
I stop thinking about it when I hear Bakugo whisper "thank you Shoto."
He used my first name? He used my first name! Does that mean he likes me too?
We sit and hug each other for a while and only separate when Midoriya asks "hey Kacchan, do you want to change now?"
Bakugo hugs me one last time and gets up, hesitantly nodding his head at Midoriya. He disappears down the hallway and I can only hope he doesn't find my bedroom first since it's a mess.
"Thanks for accepting him. He has a hard time trusting people with that, so hearing your little rant probably helped him a lot. Now, remember, no yelling around him for a while. He has a little PTSD from those idiots. If he has a panic attack, just hold him and tell him he's alright. You can both call me whenever, he has my number and knows all our codewords so we'll be fine."
"You're not staying?" I thought he was?
Not that I'm complaining about the third wheel disappearing...
"No, he needs to learn to handle some things by himself. He always depends on someone else to make his decisions. 'Course, it doesn't hurt to spend time with the guy who has a crush on him." He gives me a knowing smile and I'm sure I'm blushing.
"Am I that obvious?" I'm not good with emotions...
"You both are more than that obvious! The sad thing is you're both even more oblivious." He does like me?
"Bakugo likes me?" If anyone knows, it should be Midoriya.
"You're kidding, right? He's been clinging to you this whole time, you carried him, and he cried tears of joy when you said you accepted him! I could go on and on about how he's shown he likes you!"
"He really does like me! Then, what do I do about it?" Help me, oh great, knowledgeable Izuku!
"Try to find a way to ask him out, the more romantic the better."
"But where do we go?" I really have no clue.
"We'll talk more later, he's almost done."
"How do you know, I don't hear any footsteps-" the door just opened? "Are you fucking psychic?" Where's my filter, where's my filter, where's my filt-oh shit.
He looks amazing. I didn't think he could look any better but those clothes look perfect on him. Before I can stop myself, I stand up and walk over to him. He tenses and grimaces a little the closer I get.
I feel him relax when I hug him. He hugs me back and I can't help myself from whispering in his ear "you look gorgeous. Can you always wear clothes that you like here? You look so much more like yourself when you're comfortable."
He starts to cry again and I can only hope they're happy tears. We keep hugging for a while but have to stop when ONCE AGAIN Midoriya starts talking.
"You guys seem to have this under control, so I'm gonna leave before Todoroki kills me."
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Started writing: August 3rd, 2020
Finished writing: August 3rd, 2020
Published: January 27th, 2021
Words: 1052
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Am I Allowed To Be?《Shoto X Femboy Bakugo》
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