Am I Allowed To Be?《Shoto X Femboy Bakugo》

Chapter 8

"You're just gonna leave?" Bakugo sounds worried, and I hope he's not scared to stay with me.

"You have Todoroki and my number, you'll be fine. This way, if he has any questions you can choose to answer them or not by yourself. If you have any problems, Todoroki should know what to do. You've got your stuffy, and all your clothes." Bakugo looks down, obviously still worried.

"You don't have to stay if you don't trust me. I can pay for the hotel if you need me to." As much as it hurts me to say it, I just want him to be comfortable.

And if that means leaving....well.....ok....as long as he's comfortable I can suck it up.

"No, that's not it! I'm alright with staying, it's just....what if my parents go after either of you?" He sounds really worried, and I'm just glad he still wants to stay.

"I just won't take my meds for one night, and they didn't follow us here, so they don't know where Todoroki even lives."

"O-ok...if you're sure...." he still sounds worried.

"I'm sure, Todoroki can protect you." Bakugo glances at me and smiles.

Oh shit. Why am I so gay? He already looks amazing, he doesn't have to smile too!

"Ok, you're right. Take care of yourself, though. Wait! Did you say you aren't gonna take your meds?!"

"Oops, gotta go! Todoroki, take care of him for me. I'll check in tomorrow! Bye Kacchan!" And he slams the door, effectively drowning out Bakugo.

"Why can't he just listen?! He never listens to his doctors, he never listens to his mom, he never listens to me. He only does what he wants-" I cut him off by hugging him.

He just stands there for a minute before hugging me back. I'm sure he's still confused, but Midoriya's not here to interrupt us anymore and I'm going to take advantage of that.

We stand there like that for a while before he shyly asks "you ok?"

"I'm more than ok, just please stay here for a minute?" There's something about him that just destroys my filter.

"Can we sit down maybe?" He still sounds so shy and that's utterly adorable.

"Of course, pick your legs up." He wraps his legs around my waist and I carry him over to the couch. I sit down and he just stays on my lap facing me.

He looks down and starts to mess with his skirt. "What time is it? I'm starting to get a little tired..."

I lean back on the couch to see the stove in the kitchen "about seven-thirty. Do you want to go to bed?" He rubs his eye and nods.

He's so fucking cute.

I wish I could cuddle with him tonight but I know he needs to sleep in his own bed. "Alright, I'll carry you." I pick him back up and his grip's pretty loose this time so I hold him a little tighter.

At least, that's the excuse I'd give if he ever asked me.

I really just want him as close as possible before I have to leave him alone but no one needs to know that. I set him down in the bed and ask him if he needs anything.

"Can I have my stuffy?" He's so tired that he doesn't seem shy or hesitant at all. I stand up and grab what looks like a stuffed bear from his open bag on the floor.

When he sees it he immediately grabs it and starts to cuddle with it. He's so cute and I wish I could cuddle him like that but I know he probably needs to sleep in peace.

"Your smile's pretty." He giggles and I'm sure that I blush.

"Am I smiling?" I haven't smiled in so long I don't even know anymore.

He yawns and starts to cuddle with his bear. I'm pretty sure I'm not going to get an answer but then he starts to talk "yeah, you should do it more....it makes you look even more handsome....." he yawns again.

He looks like a kitten when he yawns and I probably look like a tomato with how much I'm sure I'm blushing.

"Thank you, good night..." I really don't want to leave but I know I have to out of respect for him.

I stand up and start to walk out of the room. I'm about to close the door when I hear a quiet "night Sho...."

He used my first name?

Does that mean I can use his?

I want to use his.....but he's half asleep and he probably doesn't even realize he said it.

That would suck, I want him to remember so I can give him a nickname! Sho. I like it. I more than like it! I wish he'd just call me that instead of my dad's stupid name.

I snap out of my thoughts to find myself in the shower with shampoo already in my hair. Oh, ok.....guess I'm doing this now...

When did I get here?

I haven't been lost in thought that much in a while. Coincidentally, the last time it did happen it was also about Suki. That doesn't sound right...I'm not good at this...I'll just ask him tomorrow. I just gotta make sure he's not half awake and is able to form full thoughts.

It'd be funny if he came up with it while he was though. He'd probably kill me but it just might be worth it.

I snapped out of my thoughts this time by running into the door to my bedroom. "Fuck!" I manage to whisper shout it, I don't want to wake him up. But damnit if that didn't hurt like a bitch!

I rub my forehead and realize I'm only wearing a towel. Well, at least he's not awake, I'll have to get used to having someone else live here.

I'm just glad I can call the weekend off of work so he won't be here alone tomorrow. I open the door to my room and change into boxers and a random pair of sweatpants, it's warm enough I'll be fine without a shirt.

I jump on the bed and close my eyes, falling asleep almost instantly to the thoughts of Katsuki.

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time skip brought to you by Kiri's obsessive hair gel collection
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I woke up in the middle of the night to the door creaking open. I sat up a little and squinted into the darkness, seeing Katsuki standing there cuddling his bear.

I laugh a little and gesture for him to jump on the bed, "c'mere". He walks over to one side of the bed and hesitates a little before sliding onto it. I laugh at his shy behavior again and lay back down under the blankets, raising one arm to show him he can cuddle with me.

He lays on one of my arms and I pull him closer to me, wrapping my other arm around his waist. He mumbles a quiet "thanks Sho" and cuddles into my chest.

He's so cute that I don't say anything, just hug him tighter and bury my face in his hair. What do you know, one perk of being tall.

I fell asleep even more comfortably and had more dreams about the cute boy wrapped in my arms.

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Started writing: August 3rd, 2020
Finished writing: August 7th, 2020
Published: February 3rd, 2021
Words: 1243