Only With You

Chapter 2 : Runway Train

I am startled awake by my phone ringing late that night. I know calls at this hour can never be good, so I am already wary. I refuse to open my eyes when it feels like I just fell asleep, so blindly search for my phone on the nightstand. After knocking almost everything off I finally find my phone and pull it to my ear.

"Hullo?" I rasp out my voice sleep heavy and rough.

"Hi, Clarke." A voice I recognize but can't place says.

"It's 2 am. Is there something wrong? Who is this?" I ask waking up a little bit more. The voice sounds familiar but I am struggling to place the voice in my sleepy state.

My brain realizes its horrible ex I never wanted to talk to again, Finn. I make this revelation right as he says, "It's me Finn. How have you been, Clarke? I miss you"

"FINN?!?!?! What the fuck? You miss me? You know what, I don't care. Why are you calling me? I told you to never call me again,", He is the last person I expected to be calling me and definitely not in the middle of the night. I can't help but raise my voice at his idiotic question and that only fuels my anger more. I realize I am almost yelling into the phone by the time I finish and have to work to control my voice level and anger.

"What the fuck, Finn?" only slightly quieter.

"I'm sorry, princess," he starts.

"Don't fucking, "princess", me, Finn. Did you have an actual reason for calling? Or do you just like to piss me off randomly in the middle of the night? If not, it was great talking to you, swell even. Go fuck yourself and lose my fucking number." I realize I am being a heinous bitch to him right now, but I can't help myself. He brings it out this side of me and has ever since his little stunt.

I start to hang up on him when he pleads, "Clarke. Wait. Please!"

Against my better judgement I stay on the line to hear what he has to say. "I really do have a reason to call. I am really sorry, Clarke. I know you don't want to hear that again and I know you don't want to talk to me, so I will try to make this quick. I got a call earlier tonight that we are going to be co-starring on this new show. I know we have a not so great history and wanted to give you the heads up before we got to Vancouver. I didn't want you showing up on set without any warning I was going to be there. A little heads up from me is the least I can do. I don't want to make this harder for you. I promise to keep my distance offset as much as possible. I know I fucked up what we had beyond repair."

I am a little taken aback that he was actually mature enough to make this call, but I still cannot contain my anger at him. After what he did to me he is lucky I didn't rip his balls off, but I knew it was always a possibility that we would have to work together at some point. I just thought that point would be much further in the future.

"You're right I don't want to hear how sorry you are again. Thank you for the heads up, but why did you think 2 AM was a good time to tell me this? Could you not call me tomorrow morning like a normal person? All you have ever and will ever think about is yourself, Finn. You do what you want and don't care about anything else. I know you have an ulterior motive for telling me this, but let me tell you I won't put up with your shit any more. You left me to deal with all of your everything, alone. You let me think you were dead for 6 months. You went to go play in the Caribbean with god knows who, so don't even try to make this about poor Finn. You know what; I am not letting you get to me again. I don't have anything more to say. Thanks for the heads up."  I hang up before he says anything more.

After my call from Finn I try in vain to for sleep to find me again. I can't believe he called to give me a heads up. I know he is up to something and I don't like it. Moving on from him when he disappeared and everything I had to deal with is one of the hardest things I have ever done. I was not in a good place back then. When I found out he was not dead it was even worse. I will never let something like that happen to me again. I start thinking about all of the shit that happened back then and the deep depression I was in. My family and my therapists are the only ones that know the extent of what I went through, but I think I may need to tell Raven a little more of what happened if he is going to be around.