Only With You

Chapter 9 : Goodbye

CLARKE

I had a tough time falling asleep last night, after realizing that Lexa heard the song I was writing about her. I am so embarrassed. I can't believe that I forgot that she is on this side of the house. I guess my little song writing secret spot will have to be relocated now. I know she said she didn't mind, but I still feel like I was bothering her. I toss and turn and know that I am going to be in a shit mood in the morning.

The next morning comes way too fast for me. As predicted, I am in a shitty mood. I don't know if it is from my lack of sleep or the hot and cold from Lexa. Either way today is going to be a shit show. We have an early production meeting and then a long day. This whole week is going to be crazy with training and shooting. I have some major fights and stunts to work on this week and I know that some of them are with Lexa. I hope we can at least be civil even if she doesn't want to be friends. I don't want tension on set to be any higher than it is when Finn is around. I need to head out, but I am reluctant to get my ass kicked all day. I hate working out and most of my day is fight training. I am so not looking forward to this with my shitty mood. I do what I do best and put on a happy face for everyone around me and hope I can keep the façade up.

We are having a production meeting this morning to introduce the new cast members and the new characters. I have a feeling that they are going to introduce Raven and Lexa first. I am excited for Lexa's character to shake things up a bit. This episode is the first time we see Lexa's character, The Commander. Our characters have this epic fight scene in the middle of a battle. It is going to be awesome once they get it filmed, but all the training has been kicking my ass since I started production a few weeks ago. I am not athletic at all, but they do a good job of making it look like I am. I have been busting my ass to make this look as awesome as I can. I have been training with the stunt team on this scene as much as I can, and I know they have a lot more intensive training planned for the next few days. And we are going to have to start training on our fight and walking through the scenes with Lexa.

I go downstairs to get my morning Coke and a banana, before I head out. I and not surprised to see that Lexa has already left, but it makes me wonder if I am I running late? I check my watch and see that I still don't have to be on set for another hour. I wonder why she left so early. I enjoy my Coke and the peaceful morning out on the main balcony while I wait for Raven to come down. I give her 15 minutes and when she doesn't appear I make my way upstairs to make sure she is awake. They are announcing her role in our morning meeting so, I know she needs to be there. I am surprised to find her fully dressed and ready sitting on her bed staring out in space.

"Hey, Rae everything ok?" I question her. She jumps like I scared her and blinks in my direction, as if she is shaking off her daydream.

"Clarke, I am really nervous about this. I have never acted before and I think I am in over my head." She admits shakily.

"Raven, what the hell! You had me worried there for a minute. You will be great, and they wouldn't have offered you a part if they didn't think you would be great. Plus, I think your character is some sort of computer guru that likes to blow things up. How could you not kill that role?" I tell her.

She looks at me with wide eyes and gets really excited over again. "I thought you didn't know anything about this role they wanted to offer me." She exclaims.

"I heard rumors about them bringing on someone for a computer role around set and I know it isn't Lexa, so it must be you." I say shrug and tell her calmly. "But if we don't leave now we are both going to miss this meeting." I continue.

She follows me downstairs and we head out. When we get to the meeting most of the cast is already here and sitting at their "spot" for our table reads. Someone has added a chair next to mine and there is a name card for Raven there and a script. I grab us a water from the side table and a few bagels and take my seat next to a completely shell-shocked Raven.

The director for this week's episode calls the meeting to order. He goes over the plot and the shooting schedule for the episode and the reality that I have a lot of stunt scenes this week hits me. I knew I had a lot of stunts, but with this schedule this is going to be a very long week. I guess I was lost in my thoughts, because all of a sudden, I hear applause and realize that they have started to introduce Lexa. They start to go into details about her character and what she is bringing to the show. He goes on about her acting asks Lexa to say a few words.

"Hello everyone, my name is Lexa Woods and I am really excited to join you guys. The commander is here to shake things up a little bit and give Taylor a run for her money in the kick ass female department. I can't wait to get started." She says simply.

Everyone cheers and soon the director has to calm everyone down and call the meeting back to attention. He picks right back up and talks a little about the stunt training we are doing this week and how intense it is going to be. I shake my head and think about how much this is going to suck. He starts talking more about Raven and how she has been helping with the training since arriving. He goes on about how much the cast enjoyed her being around set and helping out.

"Without further ado, let me introduce our newest cast member Raven Rayes. You may have seen her around set the last few weeks. She is a close friend to our Clarke and has been making herself useful helping the stunt coordinators out. Raven will be playing Morgan. Morgan is a computer and mechanical genius that also has some bad ass fighting skills."

Everyone cheers and yells for Raven. She is getting choked up next to me, so I give her the biggest hug I can. When we break apart the director asks Raven to say a few words.

She stands and takes a bow and then says, "I am so excited to be here. Thank you all for your support and not getting too mad at my suggestions with training. I can't wait to get started."

With that we start the table read and go through the first third of the script before taking a break. We all get up and mingle a bit. So many people come over to congratulate Raven. We end up chatting with Octavia for a bit about Raven being a part of the cast. I see Finn out of the corner of my eye trying to make his way over to us. Raven heads off to chat with some of the cast and crew she has become friends with, making it easier for Finn to approach.

I notice that Lexa is still at the table and move in her direction to avoid Finn. I notice several others moving away from him when he approaches, and I can't contain my chuckle. My small laugh gets Lexa's attention and she looks up from her phone briefly and makes eye contact. I make my way over to Lexa. She looks over my shoulder and notices Finn approaching behind me. She breaks the eye contact and goes back to her phone leaving me no choice but to acknowledge Finn behind me. I go over to the snack table to get another water and he follows. He gets in my space and reaches out to touch my face. I freak out a little bit and jerk away from his touch.

"Finn, what the fuck do you think you are doing?" I practically seethe in his direction. "I said we could be civil, but that is about it. I don't want anything to do with you. Please just leave me alone."

"But, Clarke we were so good together. Give me a second chance, please? Come on, Clarke." He is laying it on so thick I feel like I am choking. I don't know how I missed him being this much of a creep when we were dating. I start to respond to him, and possibly draw even more attention to us, but I see everyone start to file back into the room. Luckily, I can make my escape in the crowd and I am spared from having to respond by the meeting being called back to order. I have never been so happy to go to a meeting in my entire life.

I glance at Lexa on my way back to my spot to find her watching me closely. When she notices me looking at her she ducks her head away and buries it back in her phone. For some reason I feel the need to explain what that was all about to her, but I feel like she may be avoiding me. I don't know what happened between us, but I know I am really, really getting tired of her hot and cold attitudes. I don't know what I can do to make things more comfortable between us. My mind keeps going to Lexa the rest of the meeting and before I realize it the meeting is over and it's time to start training.