Shards of Sunset (Twilight Fan-Fiction book 2)

chapter 8 Tied together with a smile

Chapter 8 Tied together with a smile

Lucas's POV

I sit there alone. It's been a few hours since we had to run from our home, our sanctuary. I had to leave Alex behind. The feeling that flooded me, when I saw what they did to her home. Our training area. It seems to awful to be real. What if she's dead? What if she's dead because of me? I'll never be able to forgive myself. People keep dying because of me. Something's got to give.

I don't seem to be protecting anyone by staying away from the cullens. Renesmee heard Rosalie saying that she killed Bella. Maybe it's time for me to hang this up and go home to Emmett. It would certainly make me happier, and we'd be safer in numbers. I mostly want to take Renesmee home because Edward just lost his wife, and now I can help to ease his pain by returning his daughter, so what's stopping me now?

Renesmee moves slightly at the edge of my vision, so I turn to look at her with teary eyes. She smiles at me smally, but other than that she's quiet. Chloe refuses to talk to me, but I can't deal with her anger right now. I stand up and walk to the bathroom in the small hotel room we've just checked into. We were going to keep driving, but I was in no state to drive and Chloe was trying to comfort both of us and trying to figure out whtat the hell was going on.

When I made her drive me to some random house, she wanted to know how I could've possible met someone and had the knowledge to go to someone's house. That's when I had to tell her the truth about meeting with Alex and how I haven't been sleeping very well. Long story short, she's pissed that I lied to her. I get that, but there are more important things to deal with right now. Rosalie and Klaus could be outside our door right now.

I lock the door behind me, and sink back into my old habit. Alex told me not to weaken myself and show that I was breaking within, but if I don't release some of this pain then I'll end up doing something I'll regret. I press the tip of the blade to my wrist, and push down until blood begins to surface. For the first time, since I've began cutting I continue to press, and soon I have a deeply flowing sore. That's when I remember that there's a half vampire in the hotel with me.

I hear banging on the door, but it sounds distant. I begin to worry that I've lost to much blood. I stand up to unlock the door, and fall flat on my face. The door flies off the hinges and Renesmee is there. She rips a necklace from around her neck, and opens a small glass tube filled with vampire blood. She pours the contents into my mouth and a warm sensation fills my body, before the cut disappears. Chloe comes running in.

I can see her expression change from anger, to worry then to forgiveness. She stoops down before me and wraps an arm around my neck. Together the girls lift me off my feet and take me to the bed.

"Lucas, can you hear me?" Chloe asks desperately, and I nod fervently. She exhales with relief and tears flood her eyes. "Luke, you can't keep doing this. You don't think I've noticed? We need to go back to Washington" she says, and it feels right.

We need to go home. I've been away from Emmett for way too long. I've been falling apart inside, but hiding behind a facade. I've been like a broken picture wrapped inside of fancy paper, so nobody knows it's broken. I'm tied together with a smile, and when I can't hold that smile up anymore what's going to happen. I'm going to come undone. I need to get back to Emmett before I come undone. The consequences will be devestating.

I sit up and look around the room. Both the girls look at me like I've gone crazy. I just slit my wrist and now I'm getting up. Chloe moves to push me back down on the bed, but I knock her hand gently to the side. Chloe has never said anything so true. I need Emmett, I need home. If I have Emmett with me, then my smile will be real, and the seams that have been tearing will be whole once more. The key to all my inside problems is Emmett.