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(Prinxiety) You promised to come home...

How about some angst? Oh... You didn't order that? Well it's on the house😉

God sorry! Anyway this one is angsty and not as romantic eheheheh whoops...

And please don't read if you get triggered, stay safe and I love you!!!

Tw: Character death (Roman is from the beginning of this one) | Cutting |

Virgil's pov.

Another night I sit in my bed. Curled up and unable to breathe...
I miss you Ro...
I remember the times when you used to cuddle me and hold me close, when you would tell me sweet nothings till I fell asleep.

You helped me when I needed it the most...
You helped me when I got panic and anxiety attacks...
When everyone and everything was against me.

But this time there's no prince to save me. GOD ROMAN! Why? Why did you just HAVE TO go on that quest?!
I even tried to get you to bed before you left, but you kept saying it was important. You kissed my forehead and then my lips. You swore to come back fast... But you never did come back.

I went to get a box under my bed. The one you kept me from, the one I was supposed to throw out. I open it and see the blades. Do I want to do this? After all this time I've been clean? I promised not to do it again... But you can't stop me... What's the point then? I took one of them, my hands shaking.
My mind went silent as I let it go to my arm, not pressing it down. You can still throw it, you can still keep the promise. Roman could be a ghost and watching right now! And he would not wish you doing this after him dying!
But I just have to...
I took a faster hold of the blade and slowly let it slice into my arm. I gasped, it's been so long it hurts!

One.

You left your shash/scarf... Did you intend to? Did you know this was the end? Why would you even leave then, IT MAKES NO SENSE!

I let the blade do it's thing again.
Two.

My room even smells like you! It won't go away.
And I don't want it to.
All I want is for you to come home, to go in here and ease these thoughts and feelings apologise to me and never leave again.
But I know that won't and can't happen... Logan found your body. You've been buried and you're gone.

We never thought nor know that a side could die, but at least we know now. It's a nice fact... And that could be used to something.

I could feel the blade going and my blood flowing out of the cuts.
Three.

Four.

Five.

And then it went crazy...
I don't even remember what I was thinking, but both my arms were now covered in blood... Not too many cuts, but a lot of blood just flooding out...
I feel dizzy and I want to throw up, but I can't.
Tears started flooding down my face as I ran to my bathroom.

What have you done? You monster...

I washed my arms, but it didn't help much. I found an aid kit and started trying to clean one arm again, bandaging it as fast as my other arm could handle. Then the other arm.
But after a little time it started bleeding through and I had to do it again...

When it finally didn't bleed through the third bandage I got my hoodie I luckily hadn't on earlier and went to the bed, throwing off the cover and snuggled up to my pillow and your sash/scarf just falling asleep...

"I'm sorry Roman"

| I hope ya'll are okay... And that this didn't just suck, but please stay safe and don't do any harm because of this as well as many other things.
I'm sorry! I died inside writing this too.
Word count: 666 words |