URGE

Chapter 1

I thought I'd die the moment he stopped  ", mum chuckled and choked between  tears as she said this.
I hadn't seen her like this before and the sight of her at that moment broke my heart. That was when I vowed to slit my father's throat with a needle.

" It was so painful. I had no idea what he was doing but I bit his cheek as hard as I could. He moaned for about just a second over one and punched me in the groin...", she began sobbing hard and I was crying this time too.

I didn't console her because I had no idea how to do.
I wiped my eyes and went to the kitchen to get her a glass of water.

I returned to the sight of her lying on her side and not moving.
"Mum!" I ran to her and started crying uncontrollably.

"This cannot be happening." , I thought .

After a few minutes, I guess, I was about to shout my sorrows out when I heard her say, "Hey ,what's wrong?".

I lifted my face to her, she looked at me puzzled and somewhat scared as she tried to understand what was going on .

I just hugged her so tight as I murmured "Mum" severally.

I nodded and sniffed..."Don't leave me, maa, please."

"Oh, how ridiculous! " ,she chuckled and hugged me back, making me cry the more.

"I was getting some sleep, don't worry ,I won't leave you alone, honey."

   I snapped out of the memory and began sobbing and seething at the picture I had been kissing.
   So beautiful and elegant in her ways, mum was the best clothes maker in our town even though she had lost two fingers. She made almost every best dress in the countryside but never made male clothing; something no one understood but never dared to ask.

She lost my brother and had just me . Her reason for struggling and remaining alive was to protect me.

At a young age, I had planned vengeance on my father. Mum hadn't forced me to. I decided after bearing knowledge of the unbelievable troubles she had to go through for no other reason than she was beautiful and conceited.
Also because she refused to go out with any man in Duskdale,  her hometown and the place she had to go through a very bad ordeal, if it was fate.

  Rox, that's what I'm called by the very few who know me . Roxanne is my actual name but no one ever called me that and I'm most glad since I hate long names.

I have no family, my father had forcefully deflowered mum and tried to kill her when he found out that she had conceived my brother, Luke.

Failing to kill mum, who had been in hiding in a place where she never disclosed to me, my father had immolated mum's family during sleep time and given her two close friends a premature burial.

Mum had mistakenly come back to town after one year with Luke, almost a year old . She found out that my father had left Duskdale and found his new mansion in Deerfield.
Mum thought my father would forgive her once he set his eyes upon the child so she took him to the richest mansion in Deerfield , my father's.

Her child was taken from her right when she entered the mansion and butchered to death in her face.
Mum was imprisoned in a bathhouse for two months with no food or water for the first four days. I have never understood how she survived the brutality.

Abused sexually during the second month, mum was helped to escape by a guard though she stopped speaking till I was born.

That help from the guard was a compromise, as she had to exchange her freedom for a sexual encounter.
He explored mum's sensuality but had to face a death sentence if he let her go so he was going just deceiving her into sharing his juices .Mum had stabbed him in the neck with her hair pin. The pin she handed over to me to take revenge if I wanted to.

Now, about my revenge...