URGE

Chapter 5

After leaving Lily alone and travelling to Italy as she thought, actually, as I made her think, I was only plunged in sorrow and the dark at night.

That was when I had the nightmares and never slept until I met him. The blue feeling eating my eyes out and having me look all raggedy.

Sunny out there and buzzing with activity, I sat on the scruffy bar stool in a pub down in Rupit, less than a hundred kilometres from Barcelona.

I felt really uneasy and puky. The noise in the pub from the men who chanted as a football match was shown on the large tv made me feel worse. I just felt so sick and rushed to the filthy toilet that I had vowed never to use.

Covering my nose, I tried vomiting but I couldn't. I stuck two fingers down my throat and almost choked on the them. I only had spittle coming out and it didn't make me feel better.

I went back in there and someone had taken the stool I had been sitting on. It was an older bald man. In his late fifties, I guessed. I approached him and drowsily made him aware that I temporarily owned that seat and till I got out of there, no one could use it.

He rumbled something in Spanish and looked at me nasty.
I grabbed his arm, intending to pull him down from the stool.
"Hey you..." I began saying in a slur and stopped just then, letting his arm go as I threw my head forward as if I was going to give him a head-butt. I puked all over his shirt as I clutched my tummy and struggled to breath within the while.

Everyone's attention was drawn to me and I heard the bald man shout a cuss word in English before he yelled to the bar tender, " Won't you get this bitch out of here?!".

He spoke Spanish afterwards which I failed to understand.
"Por favor, lo siento.", I apologized desperately amidst tears as a lady pushed a mop and some tissues into my hand, gesturing towards the man.

I wiped my mouth with a tissue and gave the rest to the bald man who glared at me before snatching them and heading towards the male bath.

I got to my apartment safe after cleaning the pub and taking a pill that was offered to me there. I jumped into bed with my shoes on and slept till the next afternoon.

After showering and eating some pasta with very bad taste that I prepared, I headed to the pub to have a drink and apologise to the bald man if I found him there.

Walking through the streets and thinking of Lily, I was at the brink of tears as I thought of how I hurt her by leaving ber all alone. Was she eating well? What was she probably doing now? Is she crying? Did she quit her piano lessons? I made  a mental note to return to her three days later.

"Oh! Por favor" I said sharply and raised my head. I had bumped my shoulder into someone's... it was the bald man from the pub.
We both stood staring at eachother for about three seconds before he broke the eye-lock with,"It's fine. Uhm, are you feeling better?"

"Yeah. Well, yeah, I'm fine. Thanks." I said and began walking away but he touched my arm, smiled and introduced himself when I turned around.

"I'm Randy"

I looked at him like he was a difficult puzzle and said reluctantly, "Rox."

I quickly walked away. His smile made me nervous.

He was standing at the entrace to the pub when I got there. I hadn't even noticed him till he pulled me close when I began to brush the curtains aside.

"Oh my! You startled me", I said, annoyed. I yanked my arm away and turned back, walking home.

I met Randy four times the next day; he waved at me as I hanged my towel out to dry, when I went out to get breakfast, when I was walking to the pub. It was the third time that I yelled at him to stop stalking me and threatened to have him detained.
A cab almost run me over on my way from the pub and as I got out of the way with insults from the cab driver throwing me left and right, I lost my balance and almost fell but someone took a grab on my arm. That was the fourth time I met him.