There will be days when you won't recognise me
Just as I won't myself
Days when I will be so disconnected from the world
I will forget I actually exist
Days when I won't want to be a part of this world
I will drift away for some time
And the only explanation I can give
Is that it's for your own good
To protect your own light
And avoid dragging you in my darkness
Because that's the thing about my disorder
In time I've learnt that it doesn't only punish me
But it also tries to hurt those around me
It always finds a way to creep up
To destroy whatever is beautiful
To remind me how unworthy I am
Creating heavy doubts in my mind
All I can do is take a step back
Not to better myself or get my mind right
But to protect you
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But who's to blame? I guess we all change
We hurt the ones we love because of our pain, fuck
-Phora
