Camila POV
It has been two days since Lauren left I haven't left my house since the day she dropped me off but today I had ran out of weed
I had a whole bunch but when Laurens not around I have nothing to do with myself just get high to slow the pain and loneliness I feel without Lauren here by my side
I know it seems kinda of pathetic that I can't handle life on my own but i guess ever since my mother died I have some abandonment issues and clearly issues with Lauren I can't resolve life's just hard at the moment and getting high slows the world down for me and keeps me relaxed
there are times I can even sit straight because all I want to do is call or text Lauren but Lauren never text me back not since she left
I was walking down the street to my dealers place once I reached his house I pulled my ear buds out and placed them in my back pocket Then went to knock on his door
When the door opened I was greeted by this blonde
"Hey cutie what brings you here" she says leaning on the door frame
I smile and simply say "is Derek here"
"Yeah come on in and follow me" she said pulling me in with her and shutting the door
"What's you name cutie" the blonde asked
"Camila" I say with a short answer as we walked up the stairs to a room filled with music and flashing lights
"Caaammiiiilllaaaa" I head Derek say from across the room
"Hey Derek" I say walking over to him and the blonde leaves the room
"Sit sit" he says motioning to the couch behind him while we sit he rolls up a joint
"So what brings you here" he said
"Oh yeah I came to buy some more weed" I said and he chuckled a bit
"Sorry Camila but I'm fresh out of week unless you can wait I'll be getting more in like three days or something all I have is my personal stash but I need that to keep my alive" he laughs it off
"Yeah I get it" I say sinking back into the couch
"But I can supply you with something better then weed if you'd like" he said Licking the joint once down the middle to seal it
"What it is" I ask
"I have a couple Xanax's left if you'd like them" he said looking at me while he lit his joint
"How is it any better then weed" I asked curiously while he hit the joint then handed it over to me
"It's stronger it also last longer and makes you feel 10x better the weed any pain your in weather it be physically or mentally it will fix" he said sounding convincing it was better then weed and if there was something that could make me feel better then weed i would want to try it
"Yeah I'm down" I say passing him the joint back
After we finished the joint he asked if I wanted to stay for awhile and hang out see we both didn't really have vary much friends and this guy knew more about me then anyone he was more then a dealer to me more like a best friend I have told him a lot about Lauren and I and I've told him a few things about my mother
"Yeah I'm down let's chill"
It was about three in the afternoon me and Derek have been high as a kite since about twelve we smoke about three joints and played some COD
I was a little high still and Derek was already rolling his fourth joint I felt my phone buzzing in my pocket I fished it out quick hoping to see Lauren's name pop up but instead it was just an alarm for my workout
