Fall, Snow Savior (HIATUS)

[9] Cake, Chocolate Frappe, and Pizza

After he informed the two, he walked towards me and told that we'll talk outside. Minutes passed and yet we're not still talking, I really wanted to talk first but I don't even know what to say. It seems like he's still contemplating if he'll share his thoughts with me.

It was so awkward knowing that we're alone and doesn't even have a decent encounter with each other. We're just quietly sitting outside the mall, looking at those people walking by, and maybe enjoying the silence that we have.

"Leir naramdaman mo na ba yung sobra kang pagod?" Finally, he got the courage to speak his thoughts.

"What do you mean?" I asked because I'm not really sure about what he means.

"In all aspect na pagod." He said and sighed. Para naman akong nagso-solve my puzzle piece dito, but then again wala naman ako sa posisyon para pangunahan siya.

"In all aspect, hmm syempre oo. Sino ba naman ang hindi mapapagod sa lahat ng bagay diba? We're not robots, we're humans, we feel emotions. Kahit naman may mga taong sinasabi na manhid na sila, they still think and feel the emotions lalo na yung pagod."

He remained silent. I wanted to ask hind why, but as I've said wala akong rights to ask him that. I'm here to listen to him, and maybe give advice and comfort. I looked and studied his face, his face is screaming with tiredness.

"I see, Hindi lang pala ako yung nakakaramdam ng ganon. Do you think I'll be okay soon?"

I'm not really sure on how i will answer him. Hindi ako manghuhula para sabihin na oo o hindi. So I chose the safest answer I can tell him.

"Each person is unique and each have different experiences in life. Maybe at some point they're similar but how you handle things differ to them. You'll be okay soon, if you'll understand and reflect on yourself. You heal at your own pace Psalm..." I paused when he looked at me intently.

This guy, I may not know what he's thinking or experiencing right now but I can sense determination that he wants to be okay.

"...because it takes time to accept and understand the situation you're in. You don't need to caged yourself on things that hurts you. Maybe you think it's something that'll help you but saying your thoughts will really help you to lighten your burden." I smiled at him after saying that, while he remain looking at me.

I was getting conscious and shy because of what his doing. So I bowed my head, I couldn't take it any longer. There's too many emotions visible in his eyes, and I don't know what to say or what to do.

"There's this girl, my ex girlfriend, she always demand that we should have more time as a couple. That I should give her more time and presents because she's my girlfriend. She demanded that I should prioritize and focus on her more than my academics..."

I suddenly looked at him. After what I said awhile ago, I thought he won't tell me about this, but here I am listening as to what he will say. He paused and looked startled when he saw me looking at him, he doesn't even know if he'll continue talking. So I gave him a reassuring smile and nodded. He blew a breath and continued.

"I got tired listening to her. I got tired of understanding her. I got tired of explaining to her that academics is the most important thing for me right now. I got tired of hoping that she'll understand and support me. I just.."

He sighed. I waited again for him to continue what he's saying.

"I just... I got tired of her." Ang bigat nung pagkakasabi niya. Habang nagsasalita siya, ramdam ko yung frustration and pagod na dinadala niya hanggang ngayon.