Decoding The Message Of Amber

Chapter 1

I feel like it's a crime to be this average, I've never really been good at anything, I'm just a person, moving in life just step by step, i'm 17, should I have it all figured out by now? I'm not super smart, straight c's for as long as I could remember, I'm not super rich, I live in a middle class home that's just about two stories high, I have average parents, my mom whose name is Francine works for DHS, she is a social worker, and my other mom, whose name is Debra is a cosmetologist. Francine is my biological mom, even though sometimes I wish my biological mom was Debby because she is so stunning, I also have a younger brother, but he isn't much younger he is 16, he is an above average person, he has his biological moms good looks with his dark hair, he is built and super talented at anything he tries and was born super smart, he is a football/track star who also plays the trombone in the school band, and plays the keyboard and drums as a "hobby".
My dad isn't in the picture, my parents divorced when I was 6 years old, whenever he found out mom has been cheating on her with the girl who cuts her hair, and Debby has been apart of our lifes ever since, and so has her son, now my step brother mason.

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Growing up I didn't know what being gay was, and if two girls could even be in love? So whenever I first saw Francine kiss Debby I freaked out, and immediately told my dad, who also wasn't happy, where he then got into a rage and packed up his stuff and left our small trailer and I haven't seen him since, which Francine thanks me for at least one a week for spilling the beans, because she was afraid that my dad would've hurt her, which at that time in my life I didn't know my dad that well so I didn't really even know if he was abusive.
But everyone tells me I look like the perfect mixture of my dad and mom,
I have francine's dirty blonde hair, and I have my dads short stocky build, which of course is another thing about me, that my looks are very average, I get told that I'm pretty, but I'm not a knock out with the fellas (can you assume why I just used the word fellas) I'm not very confident, and it's way worse having mason as a brother, I grew up by his side and he kept developing the person he is going to be and I'm basically just a potato, I work a very lame job for a teenager, our mid size town in Oregon doesn't have a lot to offer, I work at a pet shop as the person who just cashiers, and I feed the animals, it's just an after school gig that doesn't stay open very late so I don't get to make a lot of money come pay day.

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the house we live in was Debby's mom's house but she died so we inherited it. I never got to meet my step grandma so I don't know what I'm missing out on, and my step grandpa is a wild gambler in Las Vegas and I've only met him a handful of times. my dads parents don't reach out to me so I haven't seen them since dad has left but even when he was in the picture I still don't remember them much, and francine's mom my grandma is very apart of my life but my grandpa isn't proud of my moms choices so I haven't seen him since I was about 10.

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Working at a pet store has given me the urge to buy a bunch of crazy pets but the only one my mom's both agreed on me having is my pet ferret jordan, he is named after the front man of my favorite band la Dispute.
Mason is deadly scared of my pet ferret, and when his friends come over he is the first to make them avoid my side of the house.
Since I am the oldest sibling, I have the biggest room in the whole house, Debby's dad built the house and he built himself a room on the bottom floor that's near the back that could be just his area, it is sound proof and has its own bathroom, which is my favorite part of the whole deal. Francine and Debby probably predicted that Mason would probably get everything in life the least they could do is give me the biggest coolest room.
My room is my territory, there has been times I've spent whole weekends in there,
I have a huge circle bed right in the middle of the place, I also have a flat screen tv on the wall and there is a book shelf on both sides of the tv, which is filled with my Xbox one and a bunch of games, and a bunch of my books and what not.
Then on the other side of the room is my desk with my computer on it,
And on my wall is all my band posters and some Polaroids of me with some friends and my closet and dresser but that's about it for my room.

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We call Francine and Debby by their names because in group counseling that Mason and I both had to go too they say that having same sex parents can get confusing calling them both mom that we call them by their first names.
Francine is someone that they always knew was gay, or so they say how you can tell that someone is gay is very offensive but hey it's whatever.
She is very boyish, she is medium height with not a very curvy build, but it used to be better before she came out, now that she has Debby for the last 11 years she has become way more comfortable, she used to have long dirty blonde hair but she kept cutting it off all through out my life and now she rocks a pixie cut, she has a very laid back style wearing mostly guy t shirts and some loose fitting jeans with her dc shoes.
In my childhood she used to dress up a bit girlier, but still tomboyish she would wear high waisted mom jeans that were form fitting with at least a push up bra for her b cups, with women cut v neck shirts, but she has gotten way more comfortable.
Debby has always been out about being at least bi sexual, she is super curvy but still thin, she has dark long hair, and she always dresses up in dresses and always has make up on, growing up she was a gymnast and a cheer leader, and was voted prom queen.
Mason's dad was Debbie's high school sweet heart, he was a top football player and he is also the owner of a hardware store in town, and is very much still in Mason's life, which usually gets me jealous, especially since on his 16th birthday he got a brand new mustang from his dad and I'm driving around in my 2003 Honda Accord.
Debby just said that the second she saw Francine she was in love with her, and that she is her franny forever.

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I go to bill Clinton high school, which I find humorous because we our named after our nations best president but he is also a filthy cheater, which even though my mothers are a product of cheating I don't believe in it, in any way shape or form and the fact that's the way they got together sickens me. I don't care how awful my father is (or what my mother makes me believe) I don't think anybody deserves to be treated that way.

I'm a senior in high school and I'm still a virgin, not by choice but none of the boys are never wanting Amber Majors the music obsessed loner as their girlfriend.
I've only ever had one boyfriend and his name is Miles Larson, he is a bigger guy, with dark hair and he is just about as music obsessed as me, and into video games like me, i thought we were a perfect pair but he didn't think we were so he broke up with me after four months of us dating last year and told me he just wanted his space, and wasn't emotionally invested in having a girlfriend right now, Miles is also a bullshitter.
But since Mason is my younger brother, he got his football friends to fill up miles car with at least 150 mc doubles and wrote fat ass on his car, but it didn't affect miles much since he made an Instagram video of him and his friends eating the burgers.

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I only have about 2 friends, okay I only have 2 friends
I have known Whitney since about first grade, and I've known my other best friend since sophomore year when she moved here from California , my best friend is Whitney Summers, she is very over weight, which isn't a bad thing but she doesn't like it, she always complains about it instead of embracing the body she was given, she tries all these fancy diets all the time and works out but she has been doing this since the beginning of summer and she thought she would come into our senior year all hot but she has only lost 20 pounds, which is a big accomplishment, she is super beautiful otherwise tho, she has brown hair with blonde high lights since it was just summer, and she has an amazing sense of fashion, she would be one of the popular girls because she is super nice and pretty if people would just overlook her weight.
And our other best friend is Opal, she is very artsy and tall and skinny, she has short hair that's black in an asymmetrical bob. she is also very shy and keeps to herself a lot,and basically only talks to us and her boyfriend Jace, who is super cute and funny and loves music just like we do.

And this is my average life.