𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐨𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐬 | 𝚜.𝚙

»𝐡𝐨𝐦𝐞«

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1 month and 23 days remained from our three months agreement.

Still, very still I laid on my bed taking in every detail of the night sky. A million different stars shining above the city. The temperatures changed, it was still warm in Los Angeles but nonetheless colder than usually.

Sarah's been gone for almost five days now, she had to go to New York, something for an upcoming movie we didn't talk much on the phone about it. She said she was busy.

I opened my Instagram to pass my time with memes. I wanted to go to my explore page when an instagram post caught my eye.

I gasped. What the heck?! I promise you that I'll never hurt you again. Let me prove it to you. MY ASS.
I just started to slowly trust her again, and now this?

Normally I wouldn't put much effort in something like that but internally I was furious. So I impulsively dialled her number, which was now thinking back not really the best thing to do.

»Baby,« her voice overturned with excitement and all I could feel was anger. »Don't you want to tell me something,« I tried hard for that my voice remained steady but couldn't handle it that well myself because in the end an unwanted sob escaped my mouth. In that exact moment I just wished to withdraw last forty seconds.

»Are you okay Baby?« she almost sounded worried. Maybe, maybe there's no happy ending for the both of us, I thought and wiped away the single tear which made its way down my cheek. »If I am not enough for you please, I beg you to tell me now.«

Anew my eyes landed on the sky where you could perfectly see the moons silhouette underneath a thin layer of clouds.

»Stop those thoughts, you're more than enough for me. Would you now please tell me what's wrong so that I can help you,« it almost sounded genuine and my face softened. »You said you'd be in New York for a new movie, yet you were with Holland,« I managed to tell.

»How do you know?« her voice suddenly sounded annoyed. »Her Instagram...«
»Don't worry about it really, she came up to me and wanted to talk.«
»Oh amazing now I'm reassured thank you so much,« I sarcastically replied and rolled my eyes knowing she wouldn't see it. 

»Baby please I don't want to argue with you over phone, let's talk about this when I'm back and I'll come around?«
It felt like she was joking, my inside wanted to leave my body now. »I don't think I want to talk. Just stay away from me for a few days I just can't right now,« those were my last words before I hung up and let my restless body fall back onto the huge white cushion behind me. 

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The days had passed and I felt guilty, now it was really my fault indubitably. I was clearly overreacting. I'd thought about that call for four days now and I could only blame myself for being so over the top.

As I was doing the laundry I heard my phone ring from the living room. Not really rushed I walked over to where my cell phone was laying and saw who was calling Jessica. My heart pumped the blood a bit faster than usually, I haven't talked to her in some time and it felt like she was my saviour to distract me from my painful thoughts.

»Y/n« a cheering voice sounded through the iPhone speaker. »Hey, how have you been?« I asked sounding as happy as she did but failing miserably. »Are you okay? You sound weird,« Jessica added a giggle in the end.

I fidgeted with my fingers before answering her question, »Everything's alright, wouldn't you want to answer my question?« I laughed. »I'm quite alright as well with the exception that I am actually alright,« I could sense her furrowed brows.

»I don't want to bother you honestly, what was the reason why you called?«
»I just wanted to check on you, now please tell me,« she quite literally ordered me.

»God, I think I fucked up,« I sighed and covered my face with my right hand to hold back the tears.

»...I know I was overreacting but I don't know what to do now,« I had to admit after I told her what happened and stared at the flashing caller ID. »Talk to her, communication is the key to everything. Believe me it's all going to be just fine, tell Sarah how you feel, apologise and wait for her reaction. She's not a bad person she'll understand I'm sure,« her words slowly made sense to me.

»I'm not even sure if she wants to ever talk to me again,« I whispered in hope she wouldn't hear it. »What you're saying is nonsense, if you never try then you never know.«
I felt myself nodding but realising that my best friend couldn't see it, »If you say so, I'll try okay?«

»Good Girl,« her laughter was contagious so I also did smile a little. »I'll let you call her now, good luck and y/n, sweetheart, take care of yourself and call me when something's wrong.«

»I will, thank you,« and then I hung up and remained frozen with my phone in my hands next to the kitchen counter.

For a while I watched a bird and its child which were sitting on my windowsill. Peacefully they were cleaning their feathers and from time to time the mother, which I assumed she was, picked against the window.

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Get your shit together y/n...

The ring back tone seemed to be endless until I finally heard a crack and soft breathing. »Y/n...« the other woman's voice was full of hope.

»Please, please come home,« I managed to say and I might've sounded pretty desperate.

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Here you have another chapter of me trying HAHAHAH

Anygays, thank you for your loving comments throughout this book I really appreciate them and sometimes I'm too overwhelmed to respond to them (please tell me I'm not the only one who feels that way^^) + sorry if there were any spelling mistakes<33

hope you're doing alright

-Sophia🦋