My Little Secret

No Idea

Iv made it worse than ever, I want Alex and I was drunk but I haven't talked to him in weeks. School was a hell whole without him around me and I really didn't like avoiding Jack just to let Alex know I wanted him back.

Iv been going to college on Mondays and Wednesdays, on my free days I either go to the park behind the trees in the back, I go home in my room when I need to babysit, or I go to the tree house Alex showed me. One of the best nights I spent in a tree house I want Alex back. Why can't he figure that out!

EIGHT MONTHS LATER

Life hasn't been a pain, Iv actually been better. I'm doing well in school, I've been around my sisters allot and my parents really have been getting along better. It isn't that bad at home anymore and I don't get as distracted at home as I use to.

I miss Alex but I stopped crying myself to sleep over him every night, just when I get reminded of him more than 50 times. I think of him each and every day but I try to think of him as just another broken heart, except this one felt like it was real. Jack and I haven't really talked in person yet, but we have texted a couple of times. He's in tour right now and it feel like I haven't seen him in years!

Jack still seems excited about the whole thing and still can't believe he's on tour. He tweets every day and since last week we've been texting allot. I know he's older than me but he acts like he's fucking five. Ha ha I love that motherfucker.

TWO YEARS LATER

It's been two years, I'm in my junior year in college and I'm doing better than ever. I decided to go and be an artist and songwriter on my free time. I don't see Jack anymore and we haven't texted each other since last year. I feel like he's just an old friend that took my virginity and my boyfriend...or ex?

I don't sleep at all without Alex pressed up against me most nights. I've become so use to have him close to me to keep me warm at night. He's like my sexy teddy bear, or was. I haven't thought about him in the longest time except for when the sun comes down and when I'm in the tree house.

It's Saturday and I'm doing homework in my room when I see my phone light up with Jacks name on the screen. I stop what I'm doing and jump up to see what he sent me in like a year and a half! "-Hey college smarty, I know it's been long but I need to see you!! I miss ya bitch :( -"

I laugh and decide to text him back saying "- ha ha I'm doing homework Mr. no college-" In a few minutes I get a new text "- fuck you, I'm living it, I'm fucking famous, I have a website, look me up you'll see allot of bitches wanting to fuck me. I want to c u!!! I'm passing by today, I'm staying 4 a break; I need 2 c the bitch that took away my virginity!!-" "- Where do u wanna c me? I might b able 2 get out-" "-do you remember where Rian lives? meet us there-" "-who's we? -" "-the band, me Zack Alex and Rian-" What do I do? Ill go of course, Alex probably forgot by now. Woo imma see my best friend!!

I arrive at Rian's house and find the door closed so I go through the back door, just like Jack said (if the front door is closed then go through the back door, I'm either drinking or peeing when you get here, if the back door is closed then go through the doggy door, lol jk but seriously. i doubt the back door will be closed though -Jack) I go to the back of the house and right as I open the door Alex opens it.

Were face to face and all he could get out was a "hi". "Hey, can I go in or band members only?"

"umm, come in" I walk in brushing his shoulder with mine and go straight to hug Jack.

"Jack!! Zack!!! Rian!!! You guys I missed you soooo much!!!!!" Oh my fucking gosh I'm actually hugging my friends from when I was in High School!!! I'm so happy and It's all going good until Rian asks what happened between Alex and I with him standing right across from me. Its quiet and Alex just stands up straight and walks over to Jack with a kiss on his lips "she found out I was Gay, she walked in on us when we were making out"

Everyone started laughing and I was completely surprised but still had a smile on my face. I didn't know Jack and Alex have kissed before; apparently they did often because Jack acted like it was a normal thing with them.

Jack walked up to me and grabbed me by my waste, pulled me up and threw me on Zack's arms. They were tickling me and Throwing me around, but it finally got to awkward to mess around like that when Rian threw me onto Alex.

He looked like it hadn't been almost 3 years; he acted like he was still hurt. I quickly get off and hide behind Zack. Rian looks upset that I reacted that way and Jack just looked uncomfortable, same as Alex. "Seriously what happened between you guys, be honest, everyone knows but me, even Zack knows" Rian says impatiently. Jack opened his mouth to say something and spit it out "lets play truth or dare, like the old days!" My shoulders loosened and I agreed to try and keep from all of the awkwardness.

We started out with normal dares like, I dare you to drink a medium sized glass of whisky in 10 seconds, I dare you to run outside with your penis sticking out, like I dare you to make out with so and so (not me) I dare you to dare someone else to kiss you, stupid dares like that. We finally got to me and Rian was daring me "I dare you to sit by Alex for the rest of the night" I did it but not too close. Jack dared Zack to be gay for 30 minutes and have a crush on Rian. Zack dared Rian and Jack to have a full make out scene. Jack dared Alex to put makeup on Rian. Rian dared me to kiss Alex, I'm panicking and Alex got red, omg is he blushing?

I didnt want to go for the dare but then Jack came in and said, correction, kiss Zack or Rian. I sit there and suddenly decide to go get more wine. I can hear the guys talking and can only understand so much. I hear them say she (not sure its me but have a good chance it might be) I hear them say happened, he, you, kiss, why, and God knows what else.

I get back in the room and Rian makes a real surprise. "I dare everyone in this room to put blindfolds on and two people will go to the upstairs room with an anonymous person, ill pick, don't worry I'm not doing something mean." I look at Jack and he looks confused, look at Alex and he doesn't even know what's going on.

Rian blindfolds everyone in the room and takes me upstairs once all the lights are off "so no one knows who's coming up here?" "nope" I walk in the room and it takes about three minutes for someone to walk in, were not allowed to talk but I touch the anonymous old friend. I know it's not Rian. This person has soft, straight, hair and he's tall. This guy has a soft face, and nice, full lips. Before I knew it I was making out with my anonymous guy. He's a good kisser and we take our blindfolds off, but its still very dark so I don't know whom this guy is. I can feel his warm hands touch my face and slip into my ass

I can feel his stubby face onto mine and his tongue play with my throat. I'm not sure if this mystery guy is either Alex or Jack but I'm a little drunk and I like this kiss. I recognize his voice say "I still love you Violet"

I back away quickly and recognize his soft voice. I run to the light switch and see him there! Why the hell is he here!

Jason!!!!!!