My Little Secret

That Girl

I see him in surprise. "What? How? I thought you were in jail!!!" "I was, but they let me out a couple of weeks ago, once I found out Jack was coming to town in this house I figured you would be here to." I freaked and screamed as loud as I could.

Right away Jason comes and puts his hand over my arm. "Shut up, if they see me here ill go back to house arrest, I'm suppose to stay away from you or any of the other guys.

"Why are you here?!?!?" "I just told you, I love you"

"You don't love me!! You just want to make out with someone you know kisses a certain way!! You always told me I have that special kiss? Well I do and I'm saving it for the right guy!! Just in case you didn't know I still love Alex and it got complicated because of you and your stupid way of getting me to start drinking!!! I fucking hate you!!!"

Just at that moment Zack forces the door open (Jason locked it) and everyone comes in.

I get pulled out of the room by Jack and he tells me to call 911 as he shoves himself in the room. I run to the phone and in 5 minutes the house is surrounded. Jack comes and puts his arm around me when were watching Jason in the police car.

A cop comes up to me and asks me questions on what happened and I tell him what happened, except for the part that I still wanted and that I hoped that the person in the room was Alex.

When the cops leave we all sit in the living room, speechless, in silence. Ryan finally gets up and walks to the kitchen. When he comes back he has five water bottles. "No one needs to get drunk now". Everyone smiles and it just makes me wanna cry because I didn't want it to be this way.

It's 3 am and I decide to sleep at Rian's tonight, I fall asleep in the guest room, nobody wanted to be in the room Jason was in, mostly because there was some blood stains every were but also because it creeped everyone out.

I fall asleep at 3:30 and I get woken up by Alex at 5:40 ish, but for what? "can we talk?" He asks me. "um, sure, yeah, whats up?"

I sit up and he takes a breath, finally I hear him talk

"I know what happened that night and I know you guys were both drunk, me especially, when I'm drunk I do stupid things to, and I know I would regret them for the rest of my life, Violet, I heard you when you were talking to Jason, actually we all did and I found out why you always did everything you did. I love you and I didn't want you to know until the right moment but I guess that's not gonna happen cuz I just told you but still, damn it, I still really love you, I don't just say it because I wanna make out with you because I actually really do but for now its perfect if you just wanna be friends which I understand and Its been a couple of years and Iv missed you every day I haven't seen you and I just wanna" I cut him off with a kiss on his soft lips. "Yeah I did need that" he says.

"C'mon, it's cold" I tell him to get under the warm covers and I get under his arm for a hug just looking up at him as he looks down. "Jack told you to come up here didnt he" "he called me a pussy for not coming up here, does that count?" We laugh and fall asleep a couple of minutes later.

I wake up the next morning to a rock star face that I know has to leave in a couple of weeks, and the worst part is that we just got back together. I hear his soft breathing. I'm fascinated in his arms again and I can't wait till we actually have a talk in memory lane, that's my favorite part of being with an old friend, or in this case its and old boyfriend.

"I'm damned if I do ya and I'm dammed if I don't" I hear his soft voice "and why would that be?" "because if i do then ill miss you too much and my band will be a little freaked out, but if I don't then i wont get any" I laugh.