Inside my mind

The last goodbyes

Your pov
I woke up feeling light headed as I rubbed my forehead trying to remember where I was. Last thing I remember was being in my room. And now I'm... now I'm lying on top of miles. IM LYING ON TOP OF MILES OMG!!!

I jumped up scrambling backwards against the wall. "Y/n?" He asked. I breathed quickly trying to stand straight. "What's wrong y/n?" "N-nothing. Bad dream I guess" "you sure?" "Mhm" he looked at me, almost disappointed in me. I sighed and sat next to him. "How did we get here?" I asked quietly. "What?" "I don't remember coming downstairs" "you don't..."

"No... did anything happen? Like with us?" I looked at him almost scared if we had done something. "No... no nothing happened" he said looking down. "You just wanted to stay in touch with me so you gave me your address..." "I did?" "Mhm"

He grabbed a napkin out of his pocket and gave it to me. "Open it if you don't believe me..." I looked at the napkin and carefully unwrapped it. There was my address. With my handwriting. "So it really happened?..." "yeah" he said quietly. "I'm so sorry I don't remember. I don't know why I can't"

"Nah it's ok. I don't blame you for not wanting to remember..." "what?!" "It's obvious you didn't want it to happen so your deliberately pretending it never happened!" "Why would you think that.... just because I feel faint and have a headache doesn't mean I'm deliberately doing anything!"

"Mhm sure " he said getting up and leaving the room. I sighed and rolled my eyes. He's just the same old jerk I knew when I came here for the first time. I knew that I wouldn't be able to sort things out with him. And now my moms going to nag me about it all the time when we get back.

It's like a fucking stage que b3 amuse guess who came down the stairs? Yep you guessed it. My mom. "Morning" she said. "Morning" I mumbled back. "Everything ok? I saw Miles and he looked like he was in a hurry" "oh it's nothing. He thinks I'm deliberately not remembering what happened" "well that's terrible. Maybe go talk to him" I nod and walk up the stairs and after miles.

"MILLESSSS" I yell. I walk down the hallway searching for any open doors to see what he could've gone. "Miles where are you!!!!" I couldn't find him anywhere I know you do spot open. The lightbulb turned on inside my head. The secret room through the painting on the third floor. I run to the east wing and up the stairs down the corridor and stood in front of the same familiar painting.

I've no idea if you was in there but I had to try. "Miles are you in there?" I ask. No reply so I'll say it again. Still no answer. I began to think that he wasn't there until I said it a third time and he walked through the painting. "What are you doing here?" He asked.

"I wanted to apologise" "mhm sure" "I'm serious miles. I'm sorry for what I did" he looked at me with teary eyes. "Please don't go...." he whispered. "Miles you know i have to go...".

"When?" "No idea". "Y/NNNNNN" I sighed. "WHAT MOM" "GET YOUR THINGS WE'RE LEAVING TONIGHT!" "WHAT!!! I HAVEN'T PACKED!" "THEN GET PACKING!" I sighed and looked back at miles. "Well now you know".

"Y/n. Please. Let me do everything with you. So I won't miss you as much?" I nod and takes his hand walking back to my room. I grabbed my two suitcases from underneath my bed open them up and look inside. I didn't feel right leaving I didn't want to leave them yet I had to.

I started grabbing all the clothes that were on the floor and around the beds before opening the closet and grabbing the remaining clothes out of there. Miles grab all of the little bits and bobs out of my drawer and the other drawer. Then I opened the dresser and grab any remaining things from there and I shoved all of it into the two suitcases.

As I stood back a few steps and looked into the suitcases I felt my heart sink at the realisation that it was real and that it was happening. Now my time here might not of been the best it could of but it definitely was interesting lovely and exciting. I'm never going to forget this trip even if it was only for a month or so.

I felt a piece of me would never be the same because I felt like it would be with the one thing clear that I loved and that thing was a boy. A boy who I love so much. A boy who I would never say again. "miles?" "Will I ever see you again?" "Maybe, maybe not. "But I want to!!!" "I want to as well but I don't know if you'll ever be able to come back!" "What do you mean?" "Nobody ever remembers..." "what?" "Anybody who leaves. They don't reset whose here..."

"I will" "how do you know?" "I just do" "hmmm alright" I hug him and he hugs back. The sun sets and I zip my suitcases up. Miles takes one and I take the other as we walk down the stairs into the living room where my mum is waiting on the couch sat next to Flora.

"You're ready to go? "She asked. I said nothing but nodded in response.
With every growing second my heart sank further. "Well. Let's go" she said chucking all luggage into the boot of the car.

"Goodbye Flora" I said picking her up for a hug. "I'll be by the gate honey" my mom said before driving away to give me some space. I smiled. "I'm going to miss you my little sister" "I'm going to miss you more Y/n" she said wrapping her hands around my neck.

"Can you put on your brave face for me?" I asked quietly. She nodded and smiled. "Good. Whenever you miss me put on your brave face for me ok?" "Ok. Goodbye Y/n!" She said squeezing my neck one last time before I put her down" "will you give me and Miles a second before he comes back inside?" I ask and she nodded. "Bye big sis" she said before running inside the house again.

Miles looked at me and hugged me tightly. "I'm going to miss you so so much " he whispered. "I'll miss you more" I whispered back. "I think I will" "alright" "Can I tell you something before you leave?" "Mhm of course "I love you. I love you so so much and I never meant to hurt you. I'm so sorry...."

"You love me?" "Mhm. I've loved you this entire time" " I love you too Miles". "You do?" "Yes I do" I said hugging him. "Y/N COME ON HURRY UP" "well I next be going then..." I said and smiled while letting go of the hug.

Miles' pov
"Yeah. Alright. Bye y/n..." I said smiling back. I watched and waved as she walked up to the car. I turned around feeling empty. I smiled and ran after y/n. I grabbed her hand and spun her round. "Y/n. I love you" I said before kissing her.

She kissed back and smiled when we pulled away. "I love you too Miles. And I always will. I'll never forget you" she said kissing my cheek. She smiled and opened the car door before getting in and closing the door.

As the car drive out of the courtyard, I smiled and waved until I couldn't see the car no more. I took my hand down and was about to put it into my jeans pocket when a gust of wind blew a piece of paper out of my pocket and onto the floor.

I knelt down and picked it up opening it. I smiled as tears dropped onto the paper.

"Hi Miles. I wrote this to say that you were right. I didn't want to remember that night because it made me too sad to let you go... I just went to let you know that I love you. And I always will. And I guess I can't say put a brave face on to you because it won't work. So instead I'm going to say that whenever you miss me, send a letter to the address at the bottom! And maybe even drop a little call if you can with the number too! I love you so much and I'm going to miss you. And I promise they I'll never going to forget you
Love y/n xxx"
The end

So that's it! The end of the story! If you've made it this far, thank you so so much for read8mg this probably really shitty story. I'm going to be writing a new one soon that's based on Harry Potter I think. I don't know when, but I definitely will cause I've been thinking about it for a long time. But, again thank you so much for reading this story up to here! If you want to check out my other stories and stay tuned for more!
Lia xxx