Bakugo Oneshots

The Storm Before The Calm (KiriBaku)

Really sad angst then happy. Idk what else to say 🤷🏼‍♀️
Also I'm gonna start to put warnings before each chapter

Warnings: Heavy talk about suicide, attempted suicide

    Katsuki POV

It's harder and harder to find a reason to live each day. It's harder and harder to find something that isn't my fault. It's harder and harder to fall asleep knowing I most likely fucked up someone's life. It's harder and harder to 'be myself' when my brain just gives me so many reasons why I'm a fuck up and a disappointment. It's harder and harder to realize how much worse everyone would be with my happiness.

But I want to be selfish. I want to do what I want. I want to feel at peace, without any stress about what assignments are due tomorrow or how much I'm gonna have to talk to people. So I'm gonna be selfish. I'm gonna do what I want for once. Who cares if other people get sad about it, it my life and if I want to throw it away then let me.

Kirishima should be coming over soon for the daily tutoring, so I have to do it now. There's no backing out. There's no being a bitch and saying that I'll do it tomorrow. Not anymore, I can't fucking wait any longer. I can't take the constant ringing in my ears and the damn voice that won't leave me alone.

So I sit up from my bed, swinging my legs over the side and standing up. I look to my right and grab the partly drunken water bottle that was waiting on my bedside table. It knew that I'd need it, knew that today was the day I ended everything. I held it tightly in my left hand, listening to the crinkling plastic.

I walked to my bathroom, gently closing the door behind me. I didn't bother to lock it, by the time Kirishima gets here I'll be dead. Or at least too far gone to be saved. I took a deep breath and placed the water bottle on my sink.

Without skipping a beat I opened up the mirror cabinet above my sink, rummaging around what was in there. I grabbed some pill bottles and read them, trying to figure out what would be best.

It clicked in my mind that it didn't fucking matter, as long as I took enough to overdose it doesn't matter what I take. I pulled out about four different pill bottles. I placed them down on the sink and grabbed the water bottle. Once I had the lid off I let it fall to the ground as I took one small swig of the water.

I looked in the mirror and frowned at myself. I don't understand how people could look at me without grimacing. I blinked and switched the water with a pill bottle. I turned it around in my hand, second guessing even though I knew I was running out of time.

Maybe I was hoping that Kirishima would walk in and take the pills away from me and we could just do something to distract myself. But who am I kidding, I'm just too much of a wimp to go through with it. But that doesn't mean I'm backing down, I will do this.

I looked at the name of whatever I grabbed. It was about ten letters long and looked like some kind of foreign language. I took a deep breath and huffed, then closed my eyes as I put my hand up to the cap.

I tried opening it, but for some idiotic reason I couldn't get it open. I gritted my teeth as I used all my strength into opening the damn bottle. When it still didn't work I gave up and placed that one back down, grabbing a different one.

I didn't bother to read it as I could hear footsteps approaching my door. I started to panic about actually being found out and squeezed the bottle lid. There was a knock at my dorm door and my head shot up. I was looking at my bathroom door for a split second before putting my attention back to the bottle.

I squeezed my eyes shut and gritted my teeth as I heard the first door open. I threw that bottle down and grabbed the third one.

"Bakugo? You in here? Are we gonna study today or what?" He asked with amusement at the end. I just grunted as I felt the lid start to loosen.